Lexicorn.

Sila ambil perhatian :)

2010-09-01T12:55:00.000-07:00

lexicorn.blogspot.com has been moved to a new blog site:

http://qayzr.blogspot.com.

I figure it's time (and it's best) to embed my identity to the blog directly.
From now onwards, this blog only serves as an archive of my old posts.
If you have the sufficient tolerance level, please do look round yes.
I will be importing some of the posts here into Qayzr.

I don't wanna delete Lexicorn, the name itself is too precious to me.

I'll be blogging more seriously on Qayzr. so be sure to follow that blog instead of this one :)

thank you for the attention!
Have a nice day! See you guys at Qayzr~

An Aerial View of My study Desk @ GeniusIncubator

2010-08-21T10:47:00.000-07:00

Faber-Castell Ecco Pigment 0.4 (Highly recommended)

Rocky Strawberry

Surya's Cookie Case (Bake more PLEASE)

Printing: Pepper v. Hart; A Re-examination (not recommended)

Legal Method slides from Dr. Farah

Borang Banci (???)

Room keys

Sephia

Al-Mathurat

Altec Lansing BXR1220 portable speakers

Nokia 3100

Pretty stacked reminder notepads (quite useless)

Unlit vanilla scented candle <3

We Need to Talk.

2010-08-20T00:02:00.000-07:00

I would like to blog about how I planned to buy deodorant and ended up buying a Bros water bottle close to RM40 and stationeries. Yes, its the 6th, 7th week being a first year university student and NOW I decide to buy stationeries. But hey, can I have a show of hands of people who gives a damn?

Saja tunjuk. Jarang beli stationeries. hehe.

...... Thought so. Anyway, spectacular things went down pre-on-after my 19th Birthday. Its worth way more than my compentency to keep my money in my wallet and I give a damn so since its my blog, let me patronise you with the story.

First of all, yes. I am 19, hear me roar. Sorry lama blog tidak update. Tiba-tiba banyak life. Hehe.

For most (if not all) of you who never noticed, I hide my facebook birthday notifications every year just because of my laziness to reply birthday wallposts. This year is a bit hectic and I'm preoccupied with a lot of things and I forgot to disable it so I got a taste of what's it like to be well wished by the masses. The numbers were unexpected, but I had fun replying.

Lets move on to the real fun. My birthday started off quite normally. 12am and I was sitting in my dark dorm room accompanied by Emy's snoring. But I was content, happy even. Before that I was having a pre-birthday buka puasa with Najjua at Ikea. Meatballs and Almond Daim baby! We had some drink from Starbucks that tasted like orange peel. But hey, everything seemed to taste better during Ramadan. A month of appreciation? I can certainly hope so. Selamat Berpuasa Everyone, bytheway!

So after that's done, I was expecting a late-night hang out with Najjua, she said she had some discussion with a few friends at her college.. Or so I thought. While I was busy replying wall posts, I got a call to get down. I put on some deodorant and rushed down, even leaving my facebook still online.

There she was waiting at the bus stop with a long white scarf.

"Do you trust me?"

ooooookaaayyy.. Lets just say I do k sayang? Haha. So my eyes were squeezed and pressured by that scarf, I got in the car and Lady Gaga was blasting in my ears courtesy of Najjua's Ipod. Seriously, it was totally deafening, I was at the back seat and even the driver (Mashi, thank you so much, btw) heard it.

For sure Mashi was driving. I could tell under the blindfold. Najjua wouldn't drive that fast. So after a shuffling of a few incomplete loud songs, we finally stopped. The place was awfully silent, there was running water, and it was humid. I couldn't analyse it much. Bieber was beating on my eardrums. I really thought I was in some kinda forest. How fast did Mashi drove?!

She counted, "1, 2, 3" and W.T.F.

MY GOODNESS. Lit scented candles. I couldn't believe it. Thank you, you aweome awesome people. Jan Jan, Skem, Ikan, Mu'iz, Najwa, Mashi, and Najj. Also, people in the planning, Nad. Would love for you to be there weyh.

Yes that is a lot of candles. For every letter, I well wished everyone. My family that well wished me from a distance, you will always be in my heart. My dear beloved, my good friends, and those who enriched me throughout my life. My homeland, and the home I found within myself right here.

After all that's done, we took a wrong turn thanks to me and ended up hanging out in some restaurant called Strawberry Fields. At least the food was nice, just that the prawns are hellishly small. Oh how I miss the seafood of Sabah. Me, Najjua, and Mashi (our personal JAIS who sleeps on the job. hehe.) went to Bukit Jalil to send back Skem.

Everything turned back a bit normal. We headed back, got some sahur from pelita and dropped off Najjua and Mashi.

but seriously that wasn't the end of everything. Happy and thankful for that, I am. A bit shocked of that fact actually. What was next? Ikut cerita, makan Chilis for buka puasa..

To cut it to around 5pm on the day of my birthday itself, after multiple renderings of time and venue, we got out with the intention to eat big for buka puasa... Or so we thought, again.

We spent about a 2, 3 hours or more trying to find my bloody cake. Haha. Look at the irony. I'm the birthday boy and I'm picking up my own birthday cake. But hey, it's a birthday cake nonetheless. Its banana chocolate in case anyone's wondering. Classy, with a touch of jest. Just like me. Haha. Here's what happened at the cake shop:

would you like candles with the cake?

Uh.. Honestly, it's actually my cake so... Uhmm.. Tak payahlah.

haha. I should get an award for that. They probably think I'm this psycho loner who buys himself a whole birthday cake coz nobody wants to celebrate anything with him. But they don't have my blog URL so the can continue the pity without any verification. Cewaaahh. Ayat legal tu. The abrupt cewaaahh is very Pn. Izzura-ish.

So everything else went according to natural order. Parking, waiting for the tables, ordering, eating... Normal kan? Sorry never ate at chili's before. Hehe. Awesomee gilaaaaaa. Then that's as far as normal went that night. It went way out of normality up to the point that I forgot what I ate that night! Chicken? Lamb? Hmm. Pina chilada! I remember there was ice cream.

As I was melahap and taking pics with Najjua, then came a creature out of nowhere. Happy Birthday! Haha. Surya. Surprised the bejeebers the out of me! Heart attack weyh! No wonder Najjua kept looking outside. Like. Wow. Najjua, even treating me to chili's was too much to begin with... I'm awfully, awfully grateful.

There was cake, there was the one, Najjua, and there was my best friend. Expensive food, a celebratory atmosphere.. Fuhh. I seriously couldn't ask for more. Surya even baked cooookiesssss. And yes Sur, very nice attempt on the card, but did you seriously think you'd topple mine 2 years ago? Haha. But thanks though. I know I won't be lonely at the top with you guys around.. Just make sure you climb with me :p

Did I miss something? Oh yes, Aiman! Haha. Sorry dude. This short paragraph is dedicated to you. Thanks for being there.

oh oh oohhh, almost forgottt. I only tasted a wee bit of the cake coz somebodyyy decided to go all Sparta on me and made the cake my hair gel and facial cream. And creamy, it certainly was.

Surya started it with "okay, I go get the guy, you go get the girl." after she smudged some bits and pieces of the cake on my face.

so 'innocently' I gave Najj's gebu cheeks some facial treatment, so to speak. comel. Did she take it well? Well let's just say I won't be repeating that anytime soon.

she took literally a handful of cake and went all spartan on my face, really. All she was lacking is some violent catchphrase. It wasn't just the face. My hair confirm kena. She went for another round. This time with MORE cake. My jeans and my shirt was covered with bits and bits of chocolate banana. No way I'm cleaning that myself. Pity the next laundromat I decide to dump my clothes on.

Chili's became a saloon.

fun, fun night. memang hebat gilalah Najjua with the two surprises. My girl tu. Any challenges? I don't think so..

You seriously have no idea how amazing that girl is really. You would think after all that they'd be no more. But if you noticed I never mentioned any gifts amidst the spectacular surprises. It comes only afterwards, about 20 minutes before my birthday officially ends.

As we were heading back to the car with arguments where we should go next (we always have no idea where to go), I noticed a plastic bag at the back of the car. I thought it was her laundry. Then when we finally sat down, she pulled it from the back and gave it to me as a last surprise.

i don't think anybody could've contained themselves. Though it was a relatively small gesture compared to the other two things the pulled off, but it was not less meaningful. A Pull and Bear jumper. Yes, I had to mention that. Nobody ever gave me such a thing. Another is a a box full of tokens that could literally last me for this four years.. I'd like to elaborate more on this but I don't want anybody to steal this idea of hers. It's like a total manifestation of all that love boiling inside. Sweet. I'd like to keep that to myself thank you very much.

So to recap..

I have a totally awesome girlfriend.
I do have people caring for me, no matter how far they might be.
It was the most meaningful, mostthoughtof, and hearttouching birthday ever. In short, the best birthday I ever had. Everrrrrr.

Oh, did I mention I have an awesome girlfriend? Oh yes I do~

All in all, I never would have expected you to pull off such an awesome awesome birthday celebration for me. I'm deeply touched. I love you Najjua.

May we last <3

The calm before the storm

2010-08-15T07:12:00.000-07:00

I'd like to recommend, Love the Way You Lie by Rihanna.
The beats and lyrics are uber powerful. makes you angry and wanna hit someone.
One of the wonders of music.
I think I have a new addition to my jogging playlist~

"Now you're in each other's face spewing venom in your words when you spit them"

Seriously, I just love the music. No relation to my life. I'm very happy :) no wrong ideas.

keys keys keys

2010-07-25T17:49:00.000-07:00

I just can't help but to be amazed by how lacking my attention span length is. After somehow managing to lose my Dewan Makan card, I proceed to lose my room keys. I swear to you it was here 10 minutes ago. I SWEAR. This is just great, class starts in half an hour. My stomach's empty and I lost my room key. I think I'm using this blog as a procrastination tool. Hmmm. That's probably not too much of a bad thing. Unless I don't find my keys.

Ahaaaa! found it! Dalam beg. ehek. ehek. ehek.

But I still need to eat! grrr :/

2010-07-10T08:32:00.000-07:00

Okay, Haluansiswa just finished. Haluansiswa is just basically orientation with a cool name.

I can't complain really. UM has been nice to me so far. The orientation here lasts longer but it's easier than UiTM's. There are a few things I miss about that place. Like the carpet in the library, we don't have that here although UM has the most complete law reference library in Malaysia. Just buy some carpeting please?

Oh! For the first time since I don't know how many years, I joined Malay debate! and guess what? I joined.. and won! can I put more exclamation marks please? !!!!! hahaha. I wasn't a big deal at the beginning but we actually beat seniors from the Orator Club and national debaters. The trophy is real steel I think. I guess the era of plastic recognition is over? Oh yeah B) It was hard work. No doubt. Here's a picture of Sylvia sleeping from all of the hard work.

Yeah right hard work. Duduk depan laptop buka Wikipedia sambil buka facebook tunggu makanan. Harap escape orientation saja :p

What I'm really looking forward to in UM is (hopefully) breaking my almost curse. As some of you know, I'm prone to be denied of greatness. haha. Never won first place in my life or be outstanding in stuff I get into, be it stupid or not. That's the almost curse. Having a hard time shining. Laziness, luck, and greed I think all played their part. I hope the debate is some indication of things to come.

From freshies to first years. tortured first years. I hear the faculty orientation is gonna be hell. Pray for me as in my English placement test went a bit like this...

Write appropriate questions for the following answers.

Q: _________________
A: I'll have the teh tarik and roti canai please.

"What will you be having this evening sir?"

My hope for mamaks everywhere in Malaysia? Hmm. Maybe. Nah. I prefer Macha! order apa?

Sukan Perpaduan

2010-07-02T12:36:00.001-07:00

Memang bola sepak sukan perpaduan. Tengok, Portugal dengan bekas negara jajahannya Brazil, dan England bersama musuh ketika perang dunia Germany bersama-sama melangkah kaki...ke airport.

Understanding incompetency

2010-06-30T08:27:00.000-07:00

I think I finally figured out why I can't get myself to write or to blog as frequent as I'd like to.

I have a fear of blank pages!

Serious! Its a problem! I look at a blank page and quickly do something else. So how do I get through exams and stuff like that? Well I just write cr*p until the blank page becomes a filled page. Then I really start writing. Problem solved.

true story.

It's the UM Countdown

2010-06-24T11:06:00.000-07:00

Currently listening to: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Damn Regret

We're that middle house that screams goal every midnight. My neighbour on my left doesn't have Astro, my neighbour on my right doesn't watch football. We, on the other hand, have HD in its full glory with a sound system to match.

So yes. Lets see. updates updates updates.

Well, I got myself a place in the law faculty in Universiti Malaya. Excited, perhaps. I miss Cendol Pak Akob. But that's in Shah Alam! Why do you have to be so far away. Well at least I'll be nearer to MidValley.. Anytime I feel like watching a movie, I could practically just walk there. No more taxis to Bukit Raja! Hope the city life won't distract me too much. I already plan not to enter so much non-academic extra stuff in UM. Maybe just Kelab Pencinta Alam, jaga pintu. hmm.

Then my JPJ test is on monday! yes. I finished my 8 hours yesterday. Some say it was impossible. Even I thought it was impossible. But I went as far as the Pengarah JPJ Sabah to appeal to take the test on Monday. There was 30 people in the waiting list!

In my defense, vroom vroom vroooom!

You remember the Korean TV? I guess the most productive thing I did this month was plugging in my dad's laptop to the TV and surf the net on a 45-inch screen. Spectacular.

I've surfed Facebook from a whole range of platforms. this is a first.

So nothing much to talk about here really. I'm flying off to KL probably early July, but before that I plan to ride to Kudat, the tip of Borneo. Okay, maybe drive.. And spend some serious cash on food! Lets see. Bakso kaki ayam dekat hospital, sago gula melaka at Vedablu, Portugese Crab at Fish 'n Co, Lasagna at Little Italy, Buns from Tuah Baker, Mum's Curry Lamb, Assam Laksa from Olde Station Kopitiam, Macadamia cookies from Famous Amos, Vanilla Milkshakes at Frenz Cafe, Luk Luk... and the list goes on really.

I gotta finish my food list. go ahead and continue drooling people! til next time~

Updating the blog.

2010-06-17T15:41:00.000-07:00

Currently listening to: Dynamic Duo - Chul Check

"Qayyum, you should update your blog more."

"Why?"

"Because people enjoy reading it."

"People enjoy reading palms and lips, people don't ask that to be updated"

"But you're not doing anything anyway."

"How would you know that?"

"You update your facebook status every 10 minutes, with nothingness"

"I'm pre-occupied with nothingness"

"well can't you occupy yourself with something...ness?"

"Even if I did, I just ran out of materials for another post anytime soon."

"But you have ideas, you never run out of those. work from there."

"Nopes, ran out of those, too."

"Nothing at all? Not even random ramblings, music, politics, currency exchange, gadgets?"

"Okay. Let me see... Hmmm.. Still nothing."

"Cynical comments? witty observations?"

"I have no idea what you're talking about here."

"How about this conversation then?"

"Okay done."

World Cup fever sudah mari!

2010-06-10T14:03:00.000-07:00

K, the only realistic people this World Cup season in my household is me and my dad.

I, for one, am rooting for Argentina. Because Messi scored all those four goals against Arsenal in the recent UEFA Cup. Oh that magical little wonder. I'm all up for Argentina. My second choice would be England, coz there's such much at their table right now and they haven't won the World Cup since the 60s. Hm. Well that's what they said on the last World Cup. My dad, the other logical half of the household, is rooting for Brazil and Spain. Okay, logical choice. Brazil has some fresh and versatile talents, Spain is strong in all sides. I'm a big fan of Casillas. Here's the clip of the goals aganst Arsenal.

Now moving on. My Brother goes on and on supporting Paraguay. Some of you might be thinking, is Paraguay even in the World Cup? Yes, they are. My brother did his research. Personally I think they got a shot up to the quarter finals. They're in Group along with Slovakia, New Zealand, and of course the defending champs Italy. Good Luck Santa Cruz. Yes, those words are from my brother.

I can't find a decent video of Paraguay scoring at least 4 goals, so here's the flag.

It seems like everyone is rooting for at least two teams in every World Cup. usually one underdog, and one fairly formidable team. Well try telling that to my brother. His second team is Ghana. Huh.. always rooting for the little guy. I don't wanna burst anyone's bubbles so I let him be happy with his choice. At least Boateng is in Ghana. hmm. He plays for Portsmouth, the worst team in the English Premier League this year.

Maybe a miracle would happen this year?

My mum isn't really a football fan. She screams at the TV when a player looked at somebody with evil eyes. I think that's explanation enough. But it's hard to escape the lure of the World Cup right? everyone must have a team! I've heard people supporting a team because the strikers are good looking, the jerseys are nice, the coach looks like a good guy. But no, not my mother. She's on the side of Cameroon.

"Pernah kuat bah dorang tu dulu!"

Yeaaaahh. she's referring to the 2002 World Cup. She witnessed the victory of Cameroon over Saudi Arabia. Saudi Arabia lost 8-0 to Germany that year. I am now more confused with women. She doesn't even have a second team. I'm going to infiltrate her head with ideas of supporting Argentina! hehe. But for sure my dad is going to buy her a Brazil/Spain jersey. Oh well.

Whatever it is, no matter if you're supporting the underdogs or any of the top dogs, have fun watching the beautiful game with whoever is sitting beside you be it a fellow supporter or a leech from the other team. It is a sport of unity after all. Just remember when you see Argentina kicking ass live, I'm celebrating somewhere. Cheers to the game! Gonna leave you with the official theme song of The World Cup, Wavin' Flag by K'Naan. Celebration remix baby! yeaaaah. Go download go!

Wedding crashing and pimple popping.

2010-06-05T12:09:00.000-07:00

So get this, infront of my house now, and I mean directly in front, there's three wedding underway. You try to imagine. I live in a medium-sized housing area and on one stretch of road there's three wedding.

One of the wedding is a Bugis wedding so if you're Sabahan you know that means a lot of relatives from everywhere. They stick together like icing on cake. One problem that rose was parking. wanna see how bad it is?

And that's on the right. You see that blue Prado? yes. I'm supposed to use that car! how am I supposed to get that out??

This is the view from my parent's bedroom. Jom main kira khemah kahwin!

But no hard feelings! three couples in the same street are getting married, this is a day of merriment, no frowns! I wish the wedding couples a prosperous life. berbahagia sampai ke anak cucu dan seterusnya.. (nasib baik makanan baik punya! anak chef la kahwin. hehe)

on a side note, I finally popped an annoying pimple on my nose. It's been there like forever and you can't imgine all the blood from one little pimple!! I seriously gotta find a cleanser that really works for me oh so delicate skin. hahaa. okay gay moment over. Here's some pics of the blood and gore.

Had to wipe it on my hand, no tissues to be found anywhere. Note: during this picture was taken, blood was still flowing. Here's a picture of my face after I wiped off a bit off the blood (It was getting into my mouth)

Gilaaaa painful!

Oh, yes, I'm 19. I pop pimples. so what?

Anger Management Room.

2010-06-03T08:16:00.000-07:00

When I have a house of my own, I'm gonna set up an anger management room. You can scream, shout, throw things, punch walls and other forms of letting out your anger inside the room no matter how brutal it might be as long as you don't hurt yourself. But outside the room, all that is forbidden.

No, I'm not angry right now.

I just think it's a good idea. Think about it. Haven't you always wanted to just scream because of all of the anger build-up inside of you?

And you can't exactly let out your anger right there and then at home. It's just impolite and other people might view it as uncalled for.

As far as I can think of, I think it can be used for preliminary action before confrontation. When you negotiate or talk in anger your words get misinterpreted and distorted and that's unhealthy and nobody wins!

I can imagine it now. The room should be at the back or separate from the house. The walls would be sound-proof. No glassware, nothing sharp. Good ventilation.. Maybe all-rubber materials so that I don't have to replace so much things when people use the room. oh! Maybe a dart and a really big dart board. You can stick a picture of what's pissing you off and just throw darts at it!

Fibreglass insulation for noise dampening and a soft ground in case anyone tries something really stupid.

Two reasons for lots and lots of rubber duckies: To annoy you and make you angrier or to cheer you up, depending on your particular mood.

A large protected mirror to see how angry you really are. Mirrors are proven to incite more true feelings. The more you know how angry you are, the more you know the degree of importance the things you wanna solve.

What do you think?

What's a simple way to know you're over someone?

2010-06-03T01:37:00.001-07:00

Try to do something you both used to do together exclusively. If you can keep off your mind off him/her, then you're over that person :) it can be something simple, like a song you both used to like.

Nothing's irrelevant. Ask :)

Rarity.

2010-06-02T08:32:00.000-07:00

A tale between a geek and a dancer.
Who could've thought it would work?

Of course, people who visit here often will know that I rarely post personal things. It's usually question from formspring, a mild comment of the political arena, some funny things I saw on the net, and just random things that is only is awkwardly associated to my personal life, except for some pompous updates.

that's just because I haven't yet found that person worth writing over.

And those likes keeps on coming! haha. Not to mention the formspring questions.

You just don't know how many people are secretly stalking your facebook.

But first of all, before anything else, I'd like to make amends. In keeping her for myself, perhaps I forgot to shre to the world how wonderful she is to me. I love you Najjua. Sorry for never telling you how I feel about you. Hope this gesture is a good start, yeah? Sorry I can't escape the corniness. haha.

Let's see, I think if you want to fit all of our memories in this post coz it'll bloat. So despite your less-than-perfect memory, I hope your remember the broke road trips, early morning cokes, sate perot, bad movies, that pink pillow you almost tricked me into buying, and all the food. I think there's no one time where we went out and no food was involved. I regret just one thing. and that is not taking more pictures together.

Grrr. We need more pictures together.

I appreciate all that you do for me, even things that you tried. And things I'll never know. There's a lot learnt and a lot more to be learnt between us. You make me wanna try harder, a desire that is hard to be driven through my thick skull, I admit.

I enjoy every moment with you. Thank you for the chances you've given me. & this is only for starters. Remember the deal okay? It's between us and only us. You know very well there's only a few people in this world who would wanna be with us. hahaha. Time will tell I suppose. But until then I guess my memory of duets in bus stops at 6am in the morning would always be with you. Sayang u. eheh.

*pats chest* "This is mine, right?"

"Yeah, you and nobody else."

And yes, sorry for the corniness. again :D no, I'm not deleting anything from this blog okay? :P

ur current favourite songlists? list at least 5. ;)

2010-05-29T11:42:00.002-07:00

Well lets see... currently...

Micheal Buble - Haven't Met You Yet

Timbaland ft. Katy Perry - If We Ever Meet Again

Paramore - The Only Exception

Taking Back Sunday - Sink Into Me

American Hi-Fi - the Break-Up Song

:D

Nothing's irrelevant. Ask :)

Bukan la! Blind date. jom. You don't know me, I don't know you. Let's meet up.

2010-05-29T11:42:00.000-07:00

Let me list down some of the possibilities yeah??

1. You could be a guy.
2. You could be really blind.
3. You could be a genetically enhanced giraffe who can type.
4. You may want to kidnap me for some underground human trafficking program.
5. You end up falling in love with me.

Fuh. Scary possibilities.

Nothing's irrelevant. Ask :)

Finally paid to write. hahahaha

2010-05-20T07:15:00.000-07:00

I've been selected to be a part of RealVoices 2 :D

It's like an online time capsule sealing ideas and thoughts of youths from all across Malaysia for us to look back in say 10, 20 years from now? At least that's what I think it is :)

So will be blogging from there until the program ends. do check it out okay??

Leave a comment or two, awesome awesome people are blogging there with me!

Here's the link :)

http://realvoices2.blogspot.com/

Understanding TVs.

2010-05-16T08:09:00.000-07:00

Currently listening to: Jigga What/Faint - Linkin Park & Jay Z

From a little place where I just share questions and answers among my friends, my formspring has become a place where stranger and friends of strangers ask me things relating from spirituality to how long has it been since I last punched someone.

For those who took notice, it's now mango season! :D Here in Sabah, anyway. Is it the same fruit season all over Malaysia? Oh wouldn't that be nice. I love mangoes in it's natural form. Juices, not so much. unless it's not made in the kitchen. When the mango is not sweet, be prepared to serve it to me with kicap and some uber hot lada. I'll accept nothing less.

Oh, and my parents bought a Korean TV. Two sets of dining chairs and tables, a 42-inch HD TV, a complete desktop computer from a Korean couple who went out of business. All for RM5000. Bargain gila. It would be the perfect TV if it wasn't for the language. 100% Korean and you can't change it! I need somebody to help with translating below because it keeps popping up when I connect the Astro Byond.

My best guess is "Hahaha!! You just got screwed by a Korean couple!"

Help?

My life is damn exciting.

2010-05-10T14:41:00.000-07:00

My life is so totally uber exciting, that my last arguement was with my mum.

It was about the shape of my head.

It wasn't even supposed to be an argument.

I simply stated "My head is square, I think you should do a Nick Lachey style haircut"

That's what I said to the stylist.

And she abruptly said "Jangan perasanlah, kepala kau bujur! bujur sirih!!"

My mum is not the type to back down from an argument.

So we went at it, arguing on hairstyle. She wants me to get a straight up undercut with few light trims on top coz it looks good with my shape of head (in her opinion). She wanted my hair to still be long but thinner and less fuzzy. I still wanted Nick's hair.

The stylist just stood there with the scissors and comb on his hand. I think he found the time to make a 3-in-1 milo and finish it.

At last, I just settled for a trim in the front and back, with my sideburns still in tact. Exactly what she wanted.

Ah well, at least the haircut was free. I'm not one to complain about free stuff.

I love you mum, even if you think my head is 'bujur sirih' (however oblong sirih can be) and you forbid me from using your towels because you still think you convinced me enough that pimples are contagious and it spreads through the sharing of towels.

Happy Mother's Day :)

this is epic.

2010-05-06T10:28:00.000-07:00

EPIC.

Got if from:

http://www.collegehumor.com/article:1804570

Tanjung Aru Lucky Shot

2010-05-04T06:35:00.000-07:00

Lucky shot location: Tg. Aru Beach, Kota Kinabalu.
I used my E72~

I support cleaner beaches.

Using it as my current wallpaper :D

"Baru Tanjung Aru, belum Sipadan!!"

HelpHappy!

2010-04-27T12:36:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone listen summore! :D The NST contest I'm entering extended it's deadline until this Sunday, so that means I'll have more competition D: I'm looking for my Semenanjung friends to help as I want to expand this entry to the whole country if possible :) Diversity is uber important. Please let me know if you can help okay ^.^

All my friends in KK also are welcomed to be of assistance :) we can roam around in my car going from house to house :D

Basically, I need your help in this:

Shoot a video of a youth giving their opinion on their favourite NST article of the day. It could be a friend or a stranger, but they must be under 35 years old.

Huurrrrryyy help me!

The contest ends on Sunday, 2nd of May. Hurry, the puppy is counting on you.

A DESPERATE SHOUT OUT TO ALL MY FRIENDS! :D

2010-04-18T10:32:00.000-07:00

OKAY LISTEN, I'm entering this contest in youthsays.com.

I'll make it simple.

What do I have to do?

"Shoot a video of a youth giving their opinion on their favourite NST article of the day. It could be a friend or a stranger, but they must be under 35 years old."

So if you have (and read, obviously) NST regularly, can I meet up with you to shoot you giving an opinion on your favourite article? It's not that hard.

IF YOU DON'T READ NST,

but still wanna help your dear ol' friend Qay, TELL ME. I'll come to you personally with an NST paper and shoot you for my entry :)

IF YOU'RE TOO FAR AWAY, can shoot the video and send to me?? :)

I'm aiming for 50+ videos here. Tell me quick okay, I need to submit entries by 25th of this month..

Please please please please?? I'll be gravely in debt!

more of the contest, here: http://youthsays.com/nst/

No Goodbye for Sephia

2010-04-13T07:08:00.000-07:00

Today, I tried to sell Sephia without she knowing it. I went home from doing some errands and immediately ran up to my room, unplugged Sephia from all the adapter, hard drive, broadband, and wireless mouse. I swiftly grabbed her and put it in my bag and away I was off again to the local IT Mall.

Why? I'm guilty of envy this time. I wanted to sell off Sephia to get an Acer One Ferari Netbook. Oh the bane of my life.

Ugh. My dad just had to get a prettier computer.

But then, when I reached the mall, problems started to come up, one by one..

I parked in a building next to it because I thought it was quite impossible to get a nice parking spot there. I was right about the parking but when I parked, I found out that they closed the road connecting that mall to where I am. Worse, I found that out only after I walked too far away from the car to turn back. But yeah, I turned back and parked in the building for some fee. Ugh. I was saving that for vanilla caramel soft ice cream.

Okay, so I took the escalator until way up the third floor. I knew only one computer shop buying used laptops. I went to the counter, took out the scared Sephia and instantly "Bos, laptop. HP touch screen, AMD processor. 1.9 Gigahertz!", I felt a bit disappointed in myself because I didn't even hesitate.

I saw the look in their eyes, they were probably thinking that this can be a bargain. I didn't look for much really. maybe a thousand? Yeah a thousand would be sufficient. My parents got me Sephia as a gift for my birthday for three times that price around a year and six months ago.

Then they looked at me and said "Oh sorry, kami tidak ambil AMD processor.."

Ah, disappointment. So I asked them is there another shop that takes second-hand laptops. They asked me to go this shop called the PC Bargain Shop just around the corner. It sounds a bit cheap, but I was still determined on letting Sephia go.

I went there, it was like this computer machine shop. Lotsa parts lying everywhere. I was expecting some Mad Hatter style shop owner or something to entertain me and taking me through the magical land of computer parts. All I got was some Chinese aunt who told me "Oh, kami tidak beli kalau tiada resit.."

Do you keep your 18 month old laptop's reciept?

Arrghhh. I was gonna go around and ask whether shops around there offer any good trade-in deals. I went to a few shops and just met with a few more disappointments..

Maybe I wasn't suppose to sell off Sephia. She's sophisticated, way ahead of her time and definitely not worth being sold off to buy a netbook with no rotating touch screen. Sephia helped me with my A in Law II, my research for all those tedious English paper, not to mention that friggin hectic case study for CSC134, she made me happy with all the games, music and movies. Oh don't even get me started on her role as my memory keeper.

Oh, what was I thinking?

I love you Sephia, You're staying for a longer time :) I'm going to buy you a cleaning kit and a genuine Windows 7 soon okay.

Not even a week since touchdown!

2010-04-11T08:20:00.000-07:00

Okay! new things around town I discovered since I got here.

The burger stall near my house was closed coz they were selling drugs. No wonder the beef burgers made me so happy once upon a time.
Half of the people who were together when I left are not so together now, and they took stupid alternatives.
I still question the legality of most of my friend's actions. But I'd still join them anyway :)

Asasi in retrospect.

2010-04-09T06:33:00.000-07:00

So yes, I realised that today's my final day in the land of the peninsula before degree calls. I didn't sleep actually, eventhough my flight today was at 10. No, at night. It's a coward's way out but with all the luck I'm having with flights, I'd rather not take my chances. Besides, I gotta find a beret. Why? Just because.

Sure, sure. I had memories here. good, bad, ugly, whatever. At the back of the bus now. I like being here. I just love it, it's elevated, less vibration, and a clearer view of inside the bus and out. Not that there's much to see inside of the bus, leverage is always nice even when you don't need it. I've learnt that if you're too much of a gentleman to offer a seat to someone every time, just sit at the back. sit at the corner. If you find the urge when you see an old lady, just think "It'll be a long way for her to go here at the back, and it'll be more of a hassle for you to move around. just stay, don't make her suffer.."

Okay, let's move on. I'm actually a bit scared going back to KK. I'm scared I'd revert back to the self I was before I came. I learnt to love so many things here, and if going back means loving myself even more, I'm having doubts.

Ah well, I'm going back for degree anyway so hello vanity!

But I have to at least to jot down what new things I learned to love for the sake of rediscovering them again in the future. I'll do one better. I'll dedicate one whole blog post. So here we go~

This morning, on my way to One Utama, I actually had a thought. I would write a small note, maybe on a post-it paper. I'm gonna put it in my wallet, and I'm gonna write something like "If should I die in a restaurant and the food is not paid for, just take cash from here and pay". I guess my fear of having dues when I'm finally laid to rest forever is escalated since I'm here.. A greater fear of dying? heh, maybe. Oh, and the back of the note, "But try asking around though, maybe they were planning on paying for me"

Oh, I learned to love refinement in music :) One day one of my friends bought a sick RM600 earphones. Yes, college students, far far away from home, who could've spent all that money for pizza for the whole dorm, bought a RM600 earphones. At first of course, "Are you NUTS?!" but the sound quality........ goodness. you can hear the artist in the purest form, the form they intended for you to hear the music. I remember hearing Fergie taking a breath, and Timbaland who had a little clicking sound in his mouth. Fuuhh. I tried to listen back on regular headphones, the feeling just wasn't there. You know the feeling when you watched a 3D movie and after that watching it in regular old 2D? Yeah it was kinda like that.

Poetry. In the sea of being a boy here, you know the yelling and the cursing, I sorta lost my interest for poetry for awhile. I suddenly realised my unexplainable attraction towards poetry honestly because I was chasing a girl. Fuh. That chase was fruitful, I'll blog about the girl later as she is an entirely broad different subject. People should give poetry a chance, not all of them has deep deep meaning or complicated language. Some can be fun, funny. For example, One Inch Tall by Shel Silverstein.

For those of you who know me a bit, I have a touch screen laptop named Sephia. And one day, I found Sephia SOAKED with Orange cordial. It was the wind who did it. Half a glass of cordial, flooded the laptop. when I lifted it, orange cordial was POURING OUT OF THE USB PORTS. So we ended up fixing it the traditional way. What do we do when something is wet? dry it. Guess what? It worked. It took a few days, hard work, and disappointments but it worked. I just learned that Sephia is onekickass lappy. I shall continue to love her.

the value of a buck :) I remember my Ramadan Sahur meal last year. Half boiled eggs, instant mee goreng in mushroom soup, and quaker oat. I actually planned that meal okay. Since nothing was open and I loathe an incomplete meal for Sahur, I cooked that up when I was grocery shopping. Delicious, easy to make, nutritious, as far as instant food go. I learnt to be creative with food :) It could've been a trend but it didn't fly coz I always eat Sahur late in UiTM~ The routine was: wake up, panic, eat, drink, sleeeeeeeeep.

Appreciation is nice, but self-appreciation is better. I used to blog for the sake of having fans and compliments, not for the sheer joy of it. It's fun nonetheless, but fun came second back then. I was published once but I didn't feel like I was reaching somewhere, probably because my goal was distorted. A few people made me realise the deep meaning of the saying, expression before impression. Valuable. I was in the bus the other day when a random girl came up to me and said, "hey! Qayyum kan? I like your blog. updatelah lagi.." I checked back, the last post was just my random mutterings sincerely from the heart. Hmm..

Home is truly where the heart is. No matter how much I tried to blend in, something was just missing. I guess I'm a homeboy despite my loner persona. I can say hi to people but deep down I feel like something was calling me. It was home. As soon as I touched down KKIA, I opened my eyes and felt a bit lifted, like somebody was smiling wide at me. You know what's weird? I felt the same way when I went to Indonesia last year. Eerie.

Let my teachers be unknown, let my preachers be silent for they are too heavy in the numbers to be mentioned. From the little seed of my boxer-wearing room mate to the mighty oaks of my ever-resilient lecturers, I pour my gratitude for the new perspectives, my rejuvenated spirit to say no to people who believe in failure before action, my appreciation in things I myself and many other mightier men take for granted. Thank you.

So that's Asasi in Retrospect, tutup buku!

Optimism at it's Best.

2010-04-05T07:58:00.000-07:00

Dude! Whoah. That girl's pretty!

What? Where?

There!

Oh. Wow. Okay, I'm gonna go talk to her.

Err, wait, I don't think she's single..

Nonsense. What made say that?

The guy around her arms?

Could be siblings.

Siblings? We're in a cafeteria.

So?

They're around each other's arm! that's PDA man. Still think they're siblings?

They come from a close-knit family.

Ugh. Nevermind. Okay man, don't look now but the guy just kissed her.

Uber incest.

Will you help Jubs make some money? :) Oh and the new awefullywritten blog skin sucks btw.

2010-04-03T07:29:00.001-07:00

Jubs! I will help, only if you replace the word 'some' with something more... lucrative :) haha. I texted you already, reply! Oh yes, awefullywritten lost it's designer for now, wanted to just change the colours. Then that happened. Gonna re-do stuff~

Nothing's irrelevant. Ask :)

Write away my friend :) The pain will go away..

2010-04-02T13:43:00.001-07:00

uhh. okay? Gimme something to write on :)

Nothing's irrelevant. Ask :)

I understand, I cannot accept.

2010-03-31T12:29:00.000-07:00

kenapa bercinta jika kesudahannya pasrah?
kerna bila dilamun indahnya tidak terkata
tersimpan hasrat tiada siapa yang mengerti
harapan menggunung sampai penghujung dinanti
dipegangkan janji tetap ratu di hati
dengan izin Tuhan kan bersama kapan hari pasti..

:')

Three Days online hiatus. Goodbye Internet!

Withdrawal.

2010-03-31T07:33:00.000-07:00

I'm going to go through withdrawal of anything creative for awhile.

I need to collect my thoughts. Fuh. hectic, hectic week. Went from fun to just ridiculous.

I don't know, maybe I'm waiting for something. I can't even blog right now, I'm actually mildly shivering. Don't worry, that just means the withdrawal is sorta working.

Goodbye. Will blog if I found the spirit back~

A week in my mind.

2010-03-31T03:06:00.000-07:00

Well this week, a lot of things happened. Okay, relatively happened I guess. I have to compare this week to all my other holiday weeks, not one of my hectic where-the-heck-are-my-law-notes week.

First off, Ricky Martin finally admitted he's gay, and oh man, he's proud of it. Wait, why am I caring again? All I ever listen to was Livin' Da Vida Loca, and that's only because Disney took that song and made it less explicit. Even Donkey sang it! How can you not love that?? Ah well, screw Ricky. Oh crap. I actually can. Anywho, here's the Donkey version of the beloved song :)

Moving on. Well there was that match between Bayern and Manchester United. Walking through the rain to watch the match in some mamak near my uncle's place was well worth it. Not just because Bayern won, but it was truly a great match, wished United would do better though. Posession was too low on their side.

Hmm. I finally closed down Gossip Boys. Why? Read about it in the blog~

Oh, last Monday I had a nice outing with Najj. Okay, one of our more broke ones but still nice. One of those unplanned meet-ups coz we were supposed to meet the next day but some plans got changed last minute. Went to watch a movie in her territory. Went for some Ikea meatballs, looked for a shirt, Starbucks, the occasional toilet trips, more toilet trips, and just walking mindlessly around The Curve.

Watched A Haunting in Connecticut. Would I recommend it? For regular movie goers, I suppose so.. But for horror movie buffs, it deals with just the basic elements of horror... Save your cash for the remake of Nightmare on Elm Street. Looks interesting.

So the day after, I went out again with her. The day before, I was all, is it confirmed that we can't go out tomorrow? her exact words were "Yes, yes confirmed.", so I spent all my money that day, so you can only imagine me being broke on two consecutive dates. haha. its okay Najj, I still love you. Thanks for lunch. I had a good time with Sara and Ikhwan. He reminds me of Khalid, both his face and how he talks about cars. Hmm. Wished it was longer though. It's still weird that I thought your mum was Dalila and the fact that you called your mum and said "Nak jumpa Qayyum tak?". I was all. "WTF."

Okay so I've been surviving on sausages these past few days. I kinda love it, really. They're not ordinary sausages, they're cheese sausages, like the ones mum used to buy and what Ayamazz use. Gahhhhhh. Ayamazz Roti Impit! Only asasi-ans would know what I'm talking about. Ironically, they're the least in percentage of people that visit my humble little blog.

Humble ke? nevermind. Hmm.. So what else happened this week? Of course not much! It's only Wednesday! haha. Sunday, Monday, Thursday, like it matters to me. I'm on break people. Everyday's just a holiday~

Crusin' on the freeway
Feelin' kinda breezy
Got the top down, lettin' my hair blow
I dunno where I'm goin'
All I know is when I get there..

Ah, Eminem. Food for thought. Babaiiii~

Alyshia deserves dominos for the other day, no? ;)

2010-03-28T05:30:00.001-07:00

haha.Nice try, Alyshia. But what kinda friend would you and I be if we expect returns for the sincere things we do for each other? :)

Nothing's irrelevant. Ask :)

what do you think of yourself in, let say, 10 years? are you done studying and start working? what say you?

2010-03-28T05:07:00.001-07:00

10 years? I'll be around 30 (close to it at least), I'll probably be an overworked lawyer with a few side businesses and slowly building up my political standing. I can't guarantee, but that's what in my mind :) who knows, maybe I'd still be studying, hopefully not repeating~

Nothing's irrelevant. Ask :)

who's your best friend in uitm ?

2010-03-28T04:24:00.001-07:00

Hmm. This is a tough one. But since you said 'best', I have to choose. Let's see. A combination of everyone. Everyone enriched me in a way that they complement each other. Sorry, I really can't just choose one.

Nothing's irrelevant. Ask :)

A Review of the Trotters vs. the Red Devils~

2010-03-27T13:43:00.000-07:00

If you look at the shots that were on target on Bolton's side in the first half of the match tonight, you'd be surprised if they were no goal conceded by the Trotters.

And that's exactly what happened.

First off, take note that Rooney is given a total rest for an optimum condition in facing a more significant foe next week. For Bolton, Matthew Taylor was only given a taste of the game halfway into the second half. The burden of goal was largely under Elmander and Wilshere.

Manchester United went on to win by four goals. three of which were executed on the second half of the game. Now, regardless of the fact that I'm a Bolton fan since I was 11, I must give credit to the struggle Bolton put up in the first half of the game. Possession was good and there was plenty of opportunity, even the goal was a gift from Samuel. If the goal post was owned Man U, that goal would have been superb. Instead, it became a disappointment. Major disappointment.

The counter attacks were unnaturally abundant but neither team really did anything to capitalise on it. Elmander, though looked more spirited and active in the danger zone of United, failed to really use that spirit to spearhead Bolton into a lead, or at least a draw in the first half.

The way I see it, I think Bolton missed a lot of chances because they were afraid to move. they rely so much on anticipation and the Red Devils are quite known to play against predictability. So good in fact, I was still optimistic with Bolton even after the second goal by Berbatov. Then they went on to score two more. One, by blasting in front of the goal post, another, a flick of the foot really. Just a bit on the side. Can't blame Jaaskelainen too much on that, the defenders were too slow to strengthen the lower danger zone. And that's what I meant by too much anticipating.

How Manchester United seems to just be everywhere every time just baffles me. When I thought a Bolton man had the ball all to himself, there comes one in red. This happened more than once and it's more surprising Coyle did not do anything to counter that. I personally think Matthew Taylor should have joined the game earlier. The attackers were in dire need of a more tactical approach and better precision instead of just bringing the ball forward and hoping for the best.

With the lost, Bolton stepped down one position in the league table and United went up to the top, with just one point difference with Chelsea. I hope that no more sloppiness will repeat when Bolton faces Aston Villa next week who are definitely will be looking for some consolation after a painful defeat of 7-1 against Chelsea earlier tonight.

An entry for the ages.

2010-03-26T04:16:00.000-07:00

okay 've been sucking off the life out of my uncle's place for a few days now, starting from the day before I missed my flight. So, Qayyum living in a bachelor's pad, should be doing okay for himself, right? Should be, but no.. Forget about sleeping right, I'm not even eating right here.

All my bags were packed, I was ready to go~

I'm just stuck to two screens which are the TV and my laptop named Sephia, maybe just occasionally go out then regret afterwards coz I spent a lot on my money. It's just something about this place. I just spend money. Hmm. Maybe it's all the fast food restaurants. Ah well. At least it's good food~

So, let me weird you out with some facts on my uncle's so-called bachelor pad. It boasts a wide screen Sharp Aquous, a Wii, Astro Byond, a surround stereo speaker system. Basically I have it all to myself coz my uncle spends most of his time in his room, where his I don't know how many inches of Apple iMac is sitting there, along with air-conditioning and a few gadgets I could only hope to afford (Like his 120GB ipod classic, 16GB ipod nano 5th Gen and all other things). He also has his SLR and Lomography camera somewhere inside there.

His wide-ass Apple iMac.

These are just stuff under his bed okay~

I'm happy he has a lot of tech-mags. One of the few things I enjoy doing here, but it gets repetetive.So I seek sanctuary in television. TV is good. TV doesn't judge me when I stare at it too much. I think I'm gonna use and use the misuse the Wii soon, I mean, I'm already draining the PSP on a daily basis so why not..

that's what I've been staring at for the past few days..

well one thing that's not so fun about this place is that the kitchen is just a storage place for pans and woks and other eating materials but no food! There's like pieces of chocolates, slices of cheese, sparkling juices, frozen roti canai and half-eaten pickles in the fridge. My uncle eats out a lot and it's impossible for me to ask him to bungkus for me -.-"

I'm on my own, on my own...

ohhhh, p/s: anybody ada extra lives please give it yeah~ I need one. hahahaha. lame self-defeating joke. But I'm happy laughing :)

An OLD OLD post I figured thats too unworthy to be published~

2010-03-26T03:17:00.000-07:00

What's harder than SPM? after SPM!

Not kidding. Seriously, these past few days have been stress for me! Why? I'm not sure really. Maybe it's because now I have to make my own choices.. I never had that chance with my education before. Everything from kindergarten up until my science stream in high school was 100% chosen for me. Let's hope I don't screw this up.

No more "I was forced to study this, study that", no more "That wasn't my thing.", no more "I hated that subject"

Okay, here's my list of probable fields of studies I'm seriously considering in venturing. And it's ranked, one being the most preferable and the after which are less preferable.

Psychology
Psychology
Psychology
Diplomacy
Social Behaviour (I think this qualify in psychology too)
Creative Media
Mass Communication

So you see, given that I live in this unappreciative land, almost all of the above is irrelevant to, well, pretty much anything. But heck, I don't wanna drip my sweat anywhere but home so I shall study somewhere nice and bring back the fruit of my labour for the people to all benefit. (Yeah, beneath all this cynicism, I'm a people person I guess)

Well yeah, that's one of the problem. Well in csre you're wondering why the fascination towards psychology, that's the closest I can get to reading people's mind and tricking them into doing what you want. I just need that skill for my (hopefully) ever-growing business in the future. Here's my logic, if you study marketing, marketing restricted to a certain place. Its the art of selling stuff in a certain niche or group.. But if you study people, people behave the same way everywhere. Business can adapt to that, perhaps. I hate accounts. I'll hire a third-party accountant I can trust. hahaha. Thought you got me there huh? :p

Teaching is not for me. You don't wanna see papers with the headline "Psycho over-stressed teacher stalked and sorta murdered students". But hey, anything can happen in the future, right? Can I get a hell yeah?!

"Qay, Psychology??! do you really wanna go through science again?? after what it's done to you?!"

Oh its worth it.

I have no interest in being a shrink, mind you. It's for society's sake. hahaha. (Refer to imaginary dialogue below)

"Okay, what's your problem now? watch too tight? public toilets too expensive? "

"I think the person who I thought was my soul mate is leaving me.."

"Look at the bright side-lah."

"I can't see the bright side in all of this.."

"Huh? what? no no no.. Look there! at that bright side. its really bright isn't it?"

".........."

but in all seriousness,Okay. there's no seriousness here. haha. Whatever you plan sometimes just don't work out. Look at me, I'm a law student..

you know, like the time when...

2010-03-26T03:06:00.000-07:00

I found something on the Net!

Hahaha. White supremacy.

Okay, let's get to serious business now. As you all know, I just finished my Law Foundation year at UiTM Shah Alam. Yes, I have turned from a slacker student to a mere slacker. That's saddening.

Above all the misfits and thrown fits, the laughs and the stabs-in-the-backs, to say the least it was a memorable experience. A lot learnt, a lot lost. Mental state thwarted, emotional state shaken.

Oh! Oh! It's time for Qay's You Know, Like The Time When.. Segment :D

You know, like the time when they celebrated my birthday violently?? Whoa. Now that was crazy. Fourth floor mayhem. Sorry Pi'e for getting you in trouble for that. You didn't even do anything. all the egg throwing and flour sprinkling, it was a blast! (for them at least) my body is still in trauma of being thrown round half-hollow objects. But it was good fun, we watched a questionable movie afterwards and ate KFC all night long. Weirdly, it was courtesy of me. (No, not the movie)

Or you know, like the time when I performed at the Grand Dinner? Okay, when I read that back, it sounded like a big deal. haha. It's nothing much really, but it was fun nonetheless~ Everything from the audition to the final execution was fun. But it's not without it's conflicts. But whatever it is, we're all friends now. 30 minutes before the audition: "So what am I singing again?"

Or you know, like the time when we went all around Shah Alam on the last night we were there?? Uptown, Barra, The Chancellory, the Dataran, the Lake.. You know, the usuals. We even planned to go on top of the Mechanical Engineering Faculty roof and just enjoy the night's (dawn) sky. Hey I actually learned how to ride a motorcycle there. thanks Izzat! Better put 'get a motorcycle license' for the holidays~

Ohh well actually this post is not finished yet but I lost my line of thought and I figured that I'd just let this post die in my crowd of unfinished posts.. But some people would wanna read it so I figured, why not :) hope you enjoy reading, see y'all soon!

Reminder again, Lexicorn~

2010-03-22T07:21:00.000-07:00

Qayyum, I know you open your blog in random places in random times. So this is a reminder to blog about Kenanga, your friends, Cempaka, her, shah alam, Roti Nan Cheese, Cendol Pak Akob, and practically everything that's interesting that went down during your time as a student in UiTM's Law foundation, which is now over.

Do it quick, people read your blog.

Oh, in the mean time, feel free to exploit my formspring on your right to ask me questions, no matter how irrelevant they might be~ :D

Hey, I'm on a three months break, what is relevant anyway? :p

Found it!

2010-03-15T12:39:00.000-07:00

I have found an unexpected push to continue with things once I almost gave up on.

Rejuvenation! :D

For so long I've waited for certain people to change and now I realise, the attitude that needs changing is mine :)

Push Qayyum, Push! If you want something go get it! Don't hang on to the uncertainty of waiting for other people to give it to you. They might not.

A hall so cold, a paper so hot.

2010-03-13T01:27:00.000-08:00

Ever been in an exam hall with your hands all shaky until you really have to control your pen or it'll look like a seismograph result? No, I'm not talking about nervousness. It was just the plain freezing atmosphere of an exam hall.

Okay, today was my first final Asasi examination paper. MTC039, also dreadfully know as Introduction to Social Psychology to most of my course mates.

Don't get me wrong, I love the class, even after the confrontation with the lecturer because I expressed my views a bit too excessively. (When have I not, really?) But I can't figure out what we were studying exactly in the classes, there's much backwash discussion and much of the tutorials are spent on our role play. It makes for an interesting class, but I'm not sure what to answer in exams.

So that's exactly what happened.

I slept at the Bilik Bacaan at around 4 or 5, not because I studied or anything, it's insomnia. Which is weird really. I was tired but my eyelids won't meet. I was woken up three times by three different people then finally decided to stand up when Jubili went all "Qay! It's 7:30!" Yep. We were supposed to be at the exam hall at 8. Luckily, I'm a guy.

I dressed pretty nicely, but not as nice as Que who wore a suit. I'm like. whoah. Well at least I tucked in.

So I arrived at the exam hall around 8:15. And here's the view from where I was sitting and waiting:

Yes, directly depan pintu, penyambut tetamu style.

Well some of the guys are being all "SOCIAL PSYCHOLOGY IS THE STUDY OF BLAH BLAH BLAH" outside.. They didn't sleep the whole night and still need to revise loudly outside. I was getting worried for myself.

The paper wasn't that bad. At least not as bad as expected. A few blind shots were fired on the objective paper, played against my odds a lot of times in the true/false section and for the essay questions..... Let's just say that if I aim for an A+, I have an extraordinary sense of humour.

But you know, people say I'm pretty funny :) hahahaha. Okay maybe not in this sense.

Haih. Well, I'll see you people later. I have exams on sunday. YES, A LAW PAPER ON A FREAKIN' SUNDAY.

*Curse mode: ON

Gah! No use, no use! Must be good towards Law II paper. Puan Atifah has been an awesome lecturer~

*Curse mode: OFF

Study mode: ON

eyh. its 5pm. on second thought...

*Futsal mode: ON!

Everything else: OFF!!

babai!

This is the part where you click the comments section and wish me luck. Pray for me and let's all hope that this Sunday's exam hall will not be as effing cold as Wednesday's.

If you could be a star athlete in any sport, which sport would you pick?

2010-03-09T10:31:00.001-08:00

Wrestling for sure. I have it all planned out, right down to my entrance theme :D

Here, there is no question dumb enough to be ignored :)

A little reminder~

2010-03-04T03:21:00.000-08:00

Okay, since I'm really forgetful and I'm sorta constantly on the net, I figured it's best for me to post up some reminders up here. just some things to do or get before I head back to Shah Alam before my examination starts :D

So here it goes.

Stationery! I left one of my pen caps off on the flight back to KK. So yes, it kinda burst and ruined all my other pens! I forgot the basic principles of differential air pressure

Better get some kuih cincin for the guys. Get more this time. When I got back last semester, They were going all "Eh penghulu! kuih cincin ade lagi tak?" which is usually followed by a response of "ngko yang amek last, nak pure2 sopan lagi tanye.."

STUDY! No more excuse of "I don't know the schedule! I can't study under these ambigous conditions" or "OMG Dilbert is back on TV!"

Download music to accompany me during the exam week.Very important. I can't just go on being under pressure without good music. Which reminds me, I gotta lay off Bieber for now man. Make way for Chopin! or at least Oasis.

Eat! Fatten up! The first thing EVERYONE said was that I've lost a lot of weight! (really, everyone. My grandma, my uncles, my cousins, aunts, my parents especially. If my cat could talk, he'd say the same.) the only person who said "Eh Qay, naik sudah badan.." was Faiz. and he's been in Johor since a year ago perhaps? Ah well, Tonight is gulai ketam night anyway.

Exploit the TV. I miss TV!! Nothing like a good midnight channel-flippin' with nescafe (+ extra sugar) and some cookies for dipping... exploitation status: so far, so good.

And lastly,

Find a freakin' monkey! -.-"

Anybody knows a good monkey shop?

*Looks back at post.

Differential air pressure?! WHAT? I said that?!

Lay off the physics Qay. You're a law man now~

2010-02-24T11:21:00.000-08:00

Blogging at 2:20am!

Okay, what am I doing here really? I guess I'm just succumbing to peer pressure. People asked me to update. Well it's nice to know you're cared, I guess :)

I just cleaned up my room last week, then Tiak came with his usual stack of clothes and of course, he brought his mess with him. I don't understand how I can clean my room with every possible detail checked, then it becomes this whirlwind-torn third world room after two days. *Very tempted to post a picture*

*Temptation satisfied*

Okay, now if you live in Kenanga 5, particularly on the third floor, on my side of the corridor, you'd probably use my laptop a lot. sometimes it's nice to have company, really. But it gets really dumb when you have to use my laptop with another laptop. Pointless.

If you've heard of guilt trips, well, this is a geek trip.

You see la Tiak, later I delete your playlists and updates in my iTunes, padan muka. hahaha. *evilness

Well, class is a bit slow on these last few weeks. Quite disappointing. I was expecting fireworks. It's our final week really. and next stop is the study leave. (I'll be back in KK!) Then, of course, finals! Okay, if that exclamation mark made you feel I'm looking forward to it, then you seriously have to reread the book on sarcasm. one picture that could sum up our final study week here would be this one:

Okay, not really. I just wanted to show off that picture coz I looked a bit decent.

There's a lot to miss really. From the sunshine glow of Madam Carol, to the stern conduct of Puan Nazidah, or the laughter of Puan Atifah. There's a lot to be missed.. But then, now there's a lot to be looked forward to, indeed. Your past shouldn't be the anchor that holds you down. I'd like to believe that they're the wind that keeps your sail open and lets you go further and further :)

Here are some actual pics from actual classroom endeavours.

Just some of the few people who are enjoying the symptoms of woohoo-I'm-getting-out-of-this-place-soon syndrome.

This is our last psychology class. Hmm. Looks normal to me.

Okay, now it's time for some tak-boleh-blah pictures!

After a tiring night, You shouldn't tell your students "Well, okay you can have your ten minutes break.."

Pernah nampak pokok-pokok di taman layu semuanya sekaligus?

Yah, we're a bunch of dedicated law people. hahahaha. Penat kot, give us a break la~

Well after all that, lets get back to me. My room has become an asylum for refuge-seeking cats and I don't know why. first sm, it was kaliman, then came this pregnant cat, then came this really skinny cat, then this big headed cat, then I don't know, their friends come and go. But recently there are two notable nice looking cats coming around here.

First, there's..

He checks out my shoes a lot. So I named him Shoey. But every time I call him, he'll be looking at me with a blur face. I think he's thinking "Shoey? Nak halau aku ke?"

Then there's this fluffy cat I like to hug so much! I call him Tabbie. Really, fluffyy!! :D very comel. I don't mind him sticking around. very manja too. he left his fur all over my black Adidas.

hehehehe. Oh the cuteness.

But all in all, in a bigger scope, there's one cuter :)

Anybody who disagrees can disagree in silence.

Have a good study leave everyone! :D

The vanilla trip.

2010-02-13T09:20:00.000-08:00

I'm currently bored in the bus, trying out blogging using my e72.

Jubili is asleep, poor guy.

Lets see what happened today.

We walked out of my hostel to section 2, ate some nasi campur with a huge vege, an overcooked fish and a cute looking watermelon. Well, I ate, Jubili watched. He had lunch prior to me asking him to accompany me to go out.

Then we took the U80 to Central Market. We thought the One Utama bus picks up people there. No.. They changed the route so KL Central was the place to go to. Grrrrr.

"So, we have to walk to Central?"

"Oh yes, but don't worry, it's just a short, straight road."

Hahahaha. Yeah right it was. It was one and a half kilometres away. We went through old KL Central, through a road where all the trees were either dead or dying, through a small suspicious-looking tunnel and got lost (finally) so we just decided to follow this Indian guy from afar. Never thought that would work.

So yes, central station. No waiting of the bus really. It was just there. I knew it was too good to be true! We were around Uptwon where the U82 broke down! A RapidKL bus, breaking down. very inappropriate timing. I think the driver had a hard time shifting gears. hurm.

"Jub, wake up. The bus broke down."

So we walked, again. We passed some shops and found a familiar petrol station. Familiar to me at least, this was Jub's first time going to One Utama. So we walked and walked until Jub realised (with the help of his Google Maps) that we're heading to Tropicana City.

"Are we heading to Tropicana City? That's the exact opposite of where we're suppose to be going!"

The thing about exact opposites is that if you caught yourself being in one, just do the exact opposite lah. So we did a reverse journey. Walked, and walked, through a neighbourhood of tamed dogs and SMKDU. then we saw the most happiest thing today. That big ass OU clock with the thermometer! *Ques choir girls saying "aaaaaahhhhhhh" with a bright spotlight atop both of us*

So yeah, it doesn't take a genius to figure out the first thing we both did was enter the toilet. Refreshing. What was retarded about the journey is that a lot of the shops were closed!! Gong Xi Fa Cai Shop Closing Syndrome (GXFC-SoCloES) I call it.

I don't know, It took me and Jubs about 20 minutes to find a nice shirt? yeah. Around that time. So with that, we headed off. So we walked to the bus hub. I got frustrated about 15 minutes in. Then, Jubs prayed for a bus and he got two! deih.

When we reached KL, it was raining. grr. we need to cross the road again to get to the U80 bus.

"Hey this is the famous KL acid rains! You can't make stuff with plastic here. its all gotta be glass or it'll corrode."
"Amazing."

So to make it short, we fought the rain, lost, then stayed under the rain to wait for the bus. Thank Gawd we had good seats in the bus. Fuuh.. tiredness.

All of that just because I wanted to buy a black button up shirt for the dinner this coming saturday. Oh, and to meet her! :D Fuh. Very worth it.

I still smell like vanilla :)

Everyone say goodbye to the banner!

2010-02-12T09:51:00.000-08:00

I decided to visit my blog after so long.

My first reaction was "Damn I really have to change my blog banner!" (yeah, the collages of people that used to be up above)

A lot has changed since I creation of that banner. Some of the people gained significance, some just lost it completely, for some title even got changed to plain hatred. Better neutral than hated, right?

But before I change anything, I think it's only fair for me to introduce them to the blog.

Far left-hand side, there's Debbie. Debra Allison Beaty. I remember that picture quite well actually, taken three days before New Year's 2009. At Sutera's beach. We just played with the sand a lot until she decided to splash me with sea water. I came with a pair of extra pants, and I wasn't the only one who got wet. hehe. The Starbucks afterward was nice, her treat of course :D Debs Debs. We broke a lot of rules about friendship. I can't think of anyone better to be my partner in crime, I salute you :)

Next, there's Faiz. Hmm. What can I say really. I've been through a lot of 'adventures' with this guy. We've won and lost competitions together (I still keep the half 'Juara kategori duet' trophy from LS's Bakat Interact). I even went to school to get my SPM results with him and he's one of the people who survived as my passenger during my pre-license days. I go to tuition with him we stalked my ex a lot after tuition. hahaha. Fun.We've known each other since form 2 but discovered we were both kinda related when we were form 4. Now he's on the way (InsyaAllah) to become a pilot. Hmm. I should go visit him in Johor.

Ohhh! The picture of the girl eating chicken wings. That's Nana. By just looking at that picture you can see that's she's the bubbly type. She's quite intelligent but doesn't know it. Oh, that's a picture from Carmelia's birthday. We were the only two non-Chinese there. hehe. I never missed any of Nana's Hari Raya open houses since I first came. Perhaps coz of the cooking. Superb. Ergh. Not a good time to drool over food. Will be looking forward to this year's Raya Nana! :D

Below the picture of Nana is part of my school's drama team. Last year, they got 2nd placing for nationals. In that picture, we were on the way to get second place for the state competition. We had fun, I wished I still have the recording of everyone singing I'm Yours in the bus. I designed that year's team shirt! not what they're wearing, but the casual one. Here's a picture:

OK, moving on, the four guys, I can't even remember their names. But the picture means a lot. It was during the time I was called for the TM scholarship selection. It was a three day camp,a camp where we did a lot of talking, like really. A lot of talking. We shared views on the world, ghost stories, and how people conceal farts. haha. Imagine my life if I took the scholarship to study in MMU as a Creative Multimedia student. hmm.. That's quite the first time I was academically recognised in anything.. Kinda miss that feeling.

Haha. Jasper!! I never fail to act as a complete idiot when I'm with him. He can do whale sounds! awesome. One of my seniors and a good bowling mate. that picture was taken on IU Day 200..8? 2008, Yes. the year Kung-Fu Panda came out. I threw away my cameraman duty to watch that! haha.

And below that, the brotherhood! Oh what didn't I do with these bunch of loose screws?? I'm the odd one out in that picture, I don't even go to the same school as them. Ghost-hunting, Road-trips, Barbeques, Wreaking havoc at the state library, Being total jackasses, Late-nights, Party-crashing, Rubix cube competitions, running away from authority, impersonating authority, picking utterly dumb unnessecary fights.. awh. They always had my back, even when what they plan to do behind that is illegal. haha.

Next to that, Surya! We started off as enemies! haha. Really. she wanted to stab me in MSN chats. She's one of the most hardworking and selfless person I know, even when she doesn't have to be. She's taking ADP now in Taylors' Subang, working part time in Starbucks there. 30% off baby! haha. I think she would be the first to know if there's any worthy updates of me. Taglines: "Turd! what did you do?!" and "Do you need money?" hahahaha xD Her friendship status could match Faiz's.

the picture with Bunkface is pure decoration I guess. hehe. It was from Youth 09, the time where I did my solo all-around KL trip.. Met Komplot, Bunface, Yuna, and brought me a more broader sense of appreciation to local talents. the picture next to it is a picture from Menara TM, after the scholarship selection camp.

All in all, i can't put it better than Yuna:

"People come and people go
And people gonna come some more
They pick a fight
But it's alright"

I cherish the ones who came, appreciate the ones who stayed, and for those who leave, I hope they would go to other people who would feel what I feel, hope they're happier :)

;)

Goodbye banner! Blog's gonna be modified again soon! Bye-byeeee~

A homework update.

2009-12-13T03:30:00.001-08:00

I wanted to do some homework. So I took out the tutorial questions, then I opened google. Then I forgot what to search, so I ended up playing Command and Conquer: Kane's Wrath. Much better than homework.

Filling shoes.

2009-11-03T06:45:00.000-08:00

I have huge shoes to fill!

ugh. sorry Lexicorn. I had to manage Awefullywritten. A LOT of work. but worth every bit of it :) have you visited??

okay, well, here's the thing. About two weeks ago perhaps, I went to Le Meridien to manage the PA system for a really grand wedding. it was big, they rented the hall and outside the hall! practically the whole third floor la. fuh. so much responsibility transferred from the dad. He never did anything like this and tiba2 went all "bah sabtu ni kau pergi Le Meridien sana, urus PA system", then he went off to watch the Moto GP in Kuala Lumpur.

Grrr. It was a good experience :) fought with the event manager because of some wiring issues! and I was all "Dude! I've been doing this a lot and the hotel always provide us with tape!"

Well, its being shoes to fill because it's just ONE of my dad's odd jobs. Well, he got paid RM1200 for one night's work. Imagine that! I didn't ask for a single cent... because I forgot. Oh well, the experience is much much more fulfilling.

People often regard me as a reflection of my dad's. Maybe it's because I sneeze the same way as him. But I don't think I can live up to that image, not now at least. Crazy man. he just doesn't work hard, he works a lot! I'm known for my afternoon sleep-ins and the forming incomplete sentences because I'm just too lazy.

Grrr... penat.

WellWritten.

2009-09-26T03:30:00.000-07:00

People! Attention!

I'm currently busy working on my short stories blog:

http://awefullywritten.blogspot.com

It's just basically a site where I pour my ideas for short stories. You're invited to join too if you have a story you don't want to go to waste :) You can be anonymous if you're too shy.. Just contact me, you know how to do that :D

Oh, plus my pseudonym there is Qay (Yeah, I very lazy wanna be anonymous)

If you have Facebook, be sure to follow the blog :D

Thanks ;)

Room, meet blog!

2009-09-10T12:57:00.000-07:00

There's a saying about university life.

You either stand up, or get down. You're gonna get bombarded by the people who are brave enough to choose to stand up.

And guess where I stand? ;)

Here's an ironic fact, I'm goin to blog about Uitm on the very last day I'm gonna be here before my long break. Hey! At least I'm doing it ;p

Well, so far I've lost two things. My sponge and my towel. I don't know whether I should be thankful or just feel wierded out. Most of the time, I leave my room unlocked with my laptop still on, plugged in with my mobile broadband and my external hard drive. What's the worst thing happened so far to my laptop? people help to shut it down and closed it. And people still take my sponge! -.-"

Ah well. Now let me introduce all of you to K5306 a.k.a Bilik Penghulu a.k.a Conference Room a.k.a smoking room a.k.a Tiak's room. Tiak's my room mate. and yes, Tiak is derived from the malay version of the word armpit, if you had to ask. I wish not to divulge further details. Eeewww.. hahahaha!

The GRAND entrance. It's grand I tell you!

If you turn to your left immediately after entering, you'll find our neatly organised shoes and slippers. And if you look closely, you can see a book on Tiak's bed. Yes, we actually study.

My bed! The kain sarung really comes in handy at times.

Laptop, books, essentials! Essentials include instant soup, instant drink, and instant happiness! too bad no instant eggs tho. Eggs need about an hour to half boil. Hey my study table looks pretty nice! View outside? uninteresting. all I see is the other senior boys dorms.

Side view! hey it still looks nice! :D hehe. This is really old actually. now I have eggs, and those maggi are all gone. I think that vitamin C finish dy.

Each person has a notice board next to his/her study table. A good concept really. now let's compare my notice board and Tiak's.

Mine.

Tiak's.

Well other than knowing how to study law, I've actually learnt a lot from the people here. Let's recap shall we? :)

New ways of appreciating friendship! If anyone asks, what was the best part about World Stage 2009, I'd answer Surya :)

I can play guitar tabs! hehe. Not thinking of seriously playing it though, just something to fill my free time..

I learned how to drive a scooter! Shhh! Don't tell my dad.

I finally found CBN! hahahaha. you know ka since kecil I wanted to know where is that school?

Okay, let's move on to more serious things. Actually, Life in uni is not that much different from high school in terms of people. It's basically the same people you have in class right now. There's the loud one, creative one, cute one, smart one, etc. With any luck, maybe you'll have quite a variation but ultimately they're all quite the same. So don't stress about that, you had enough practice already!

If I can it put into words, it'd be what T.I said. It's not about the mistakes but what you learnt from it. Simply said. Simple truth. Often forgotten.

Well I guess this is it for my last post before leaving for KK. See you people during raya in KK! :D

If you're reading this, it means you've forgiven me for all the bad things I've done to you and everyone you know regardless whether you think they know me or not.

Smile! :D

oh yes, this is tiak:

And this is my room after Tiak enters the room.

Ah well at least the shoes are organised.

OHMYGOD~

2009-09-06T03:58:00.001-07:00

I watched The Final Destination yesterday.

In freakin 3D!

I like the graphics. but storyline but a little bit ngeh. but just a little bit :]

You should see how the people die oh! cool graphics. really cool. If you like all those thriller/slasher/macabre kill kill die die stuff, it'll be a treat :) What I don't like about this is that the twist is not really daunting. it's quite the same as the prequels. Of course all of them die in the end. duh! oh! and I watched the Orphan too! This movie is pretty cool. high-end story-telling and the twist at the end is superb! You'll never guess :) And really, something's wrong with Esther.

I can't wait to come home! Wonder how the furniture in the house is now. Last time I went away, they changed my room structure, the furnitures and changed the TV! I heard they changed the cat. I'm here thinking. WHY? what's next? my brothers?

Eh. that wouldn't be such a bad idea B)

Well. I got work to do. Later~

Contemplating.

2009-08-29T17:26:00.001-07:00

Huh. Life, seems to be pretty empty nowadays.
If yours isn't, then stop rubbing it in my face :)

Here I am blogging at 8am in the cold morning of Sunday. Nothing much to do though. My computer crashed and the back-ups can't be restored. Now that's just pointless.

I lost my Uitm cyberlife completely. presentations, assignments, tutorials, exercises. All of them. Lucky for me, I just have some Computer Class journal CD and Library Skills assignments to finish up. but no more presentations. fuh. Thank God. It's gonna be hard though doing all that without Photoshop.

Well let's look on the brighter side! My computer's faster now! (Let's see how long that can tahan)

Okay. No more bright side. Its like walking on a dark street with one street light being on, and it's flickering!

Well. I got bought a broadband at a ridiculous price :) That's good news.

And we're back to the dark street.

I miss eating Kiwi. and that Coca-cola manufactured Kurma juice! :/

I'll be back in KK on the 13th! :D send me open house invites. And remember,

Just because I'm 18, doesn't mean you can't give me duit raya ;)

Woooooorld Stage!

2009-08-23T11:41:00.000-07:00

Let's see. I wanna blog about World Stage!

My God. That's one of the most fun experience I had in years.

First of all, thank you Sofia for the pass! :D later I belanja u makan.

Surya tidak pandai ambil gambar :p

Fact: I skipped two days of ceramah with a threat that states "If you don't come, marks will be deducted from your exam"

Screw it. As N.E.R.D put it, "Sooner or later it'll all crashing down", oh plus it was worth it!

It'll be normal to hear me say-

Oh, I was late for the concert.

I forgot to go to the ATM machine.

We had no transportation to go there.

I just had one meal all day.

So I'll skip all that and get you riiiight to the stage!

First I got a place riiiight in front of the stage, behind the moshpit but then Surya said it was stuffy and she moved in front of the big screen on the right. I moved from there because I thought the crowd was dead there. then, we moved to the other end. They were annoying kids there. Oh well just my luck.

Well first we were treated to the likes of Sabah's very own Estranged

Estranged were awesome! The crowd just didn't give much support as they did for other acts but I can feel the energy radiating off the stage, right up in my face (Or maybe because I stood right next to the huge screen? hmmm) The guitarist had tattoos all over his face and Rich, the vocalist, went really simple with his outfit which is understandable because I could see he sweat a lot with all the screaming and jumping. Anywho, they did me proud.

I'm not really a big fan of Boys Like Girls after Adam did their rendition of The Great Escape during last year's bakat Interact but they were cool on World Stage. They brought out all their hit songs and almost *ehem ehem* everyone sang along. I need to listen to the radio more.

After that it was Pixie Lott I think? Gosh she's pretty. On stage, she sounds really like what you hear on TV! awesomeness. I got the chance to snap just one picture with her after the concert because she was with her family (really) and a few security people! Me and Surya were planning on stalking Tyson Ritter but found Pixie Lott instead, pucuk dicita ulam mendatang. hehehe.

Crap. Hoobastank was AWESOME! A LOT OF ENERGY. Missed them. People in the moshpit went crazy when Hoobastank sang Crawling In The Dark. Gawd I miss that song. Oh! They asked if we wanted to sing along, so yes, duh, we want to sing along. What song? Ghostbusters! haha. "You guys are ridiculous" then they played The Reason. Oh, a song from their new album as well "My Turn", try to listen to it. I was singing along to it eventhough I never heard it before. Was expecting them to perform 'born to lead' but it was alright, they did more than pay their dues. Sorry, no pics of Hoobastank. was too busy screaming Hoobastank I love youuuuuuuuu :D hahaha. gayness.

Raygun, hmm. they were refreshing really. A new blend of music. Well, they're more like The Who's and The Monkees combined and presented in a more contemporary vibe. Layan! "Just because you can, It doesn't mean you should" ;) They look different from their music videos but it doesn't matter, after World Stage I'm sure their fanbase will go up.

Did I forget any acts? Oh yes. All American Rejects! They were better than good. Tyson was wierdly full of energy. Well, it's not wierd for him but still. He looked high with glitter all over his body and he climbed the lighting sets. I think they performed about 5 or 6 songs, Tyson was clearly sweating like hell.

Overall, it was a damn good experience. I think Hoobastank and AAR stole the show not just because they performed with unprecedented enthusiasm, but I don't know, they just make me happy for being there.

So now, you people gotta wish me luck for my next test! :p

The post with a lot of question marks.

2009-07-30T14:54:00.000-07:00

Something wierd happened today. I ran out of thought. I tried to list down in my head three non-material things that I absolutely love that belongs to me and all I could think of is, one, my name. And the list stops there. Then I tried to list down material things, Wow. Extensive is the word to describe only the preface. My laptop, my hard drive, the contents, my Ipod, my superman long-sleeve shirt, my alarm clock, my money.. Even my iron is in the list.

What happened? have I grown materialistic? Can't be. I've always liked all those material things.

Wait. Why am I blogging again? Hmm. That's a thought to ponder.. for another time. Now let's focus on my problem. If you were asked the same question, what would you add? Maybe some of you don't even like your name, maybe you prefer something more exotic or high tech. Well tough luck. Back to the question. What would you add?

Your friends, perhaps? nah. I said stuff that belongs to you. You don't own your friends. They can come, stay, and go as much as they please. Now think... hmmm.. Family? Okay, you can consider that I guess. But isn't family considered material things? I mean, they're there. You can touch them right? well not the deceased ones. That would just be... awkward. Okay, dead family members can be added to the list. But wait! How can you declare that? You hear "That's my grandma" but rarely "Thats my dead grandma". So the question goes on.

Today, we live in a world where we cannot love our talent so much. Either it's not that great or you're gonna be considered a show off. I mean, what can you consider a talent anyway? Is drawing a talent? If you look at most dictionaries, usually the first definition for talent is a 'special natural ability or aptitude', or something along that line. Special natural ability... special.. special.. how special is drawing? What is special these days? Looked up the dictionary again. special: of a distinct or particular kind or character. Tons of people draw. architects, engineers, technician, doctors, students, teachers.. So how distinct is are you? unless you have the ability to see into the future, let's scratch talent for a while. But then again, I wouldn't have to tell you that if you could see into the future, right?

So, what is it gonna be? Oh! Idea! how about your culture? Okay we're getting solid here. We all have our own culture or traditions, right? Well it doesn't belong to us per se. It belongs to our race specifically. But we're a part of our own race.. And so if my logic is right, you belong to a race, your culture belongs to your race, so the culture is... yours? perhaps perhaps. But that raises the question of the second part of the question. Love. do you absolutely love your culture? sure, on the lips it's easy to convey. I'll tell you straight, I like my culture. I can't really say I love it. If I do then I have to practice it a lot, and it's hard to eat spaghetti with just your right hand.

Let's leave out one sensitive issue, religion. Do you dare say you own your religion? Thought so. for some of us, we live religion, some only adopt it's teachings into our daily conduct. It's more like you adopting a child. yo don't own the child. If you do, then I guess you're eligible to take his/her life. After all, you do own it.

Your health? Oh really? Tell me, in the past 24 hours, how many things have you eaten/drank/smoked that does not have any artificial flavouring, colouring, any other chemical substance that could harm you if not now, in the future? How long did you exercise today? Do you know where your food comes from? How healthy is the place you always go to enjoy a meal? Yeah, exactly.

No, I'm not trying to antagonise anybody's thought here. I'm just posing all these question for one obvious reason, I want answers. (That wasn't so hard to figure out right?) I don't expect a perfect answer, unless you have one. Well do you?

Your reputation, your legacy, your spirit, all of these are the residues precipitated from one important thing. Your name. Refer back to my first paragraph. I don't think a mention now is significant. But hey, just for argument's sake, how good is your reputation? answer if and only if you think you have one.

If you think I make sense then my work here is done. I just wanna be alone in this predicament. If I sucekd you in, then welcome to a world with endless question marks :) Have a pleasant stay. Wait, if you think I don't make sense, then you're in that world before I even began. You should be welcoming me.

"We all die. The goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will."

Stuff you don't wanna hear.

2009-07-22T11:43:00.000-07:00

Wo. I browsed through my blog and found out that..

I've doubled the amount of followers to my blog!

And I did that in just a year.

From two followers, I've doubled that number to FOUR! Take that Kenny Sia! hehehe :p

didn't see the sarcasm? well pretend to laugh.

I'm only blogging because I have zero notification in facebook and TONS of quiz invites. really. I leave my facebook alone for 1 day and I get hundreds of quizzes like How Deep is Your Trachea? or What Will You Get Arrested For? The quizzes are fine really. but when they start to probe stuff like where's the freakiest place I'll have sex, I'd say thanks, but no thanks, I have freakier plans mind you :p

University life? Hmm. let's say the drama is more than I bargained for. hehe. I'm done being nice to everyone. If you did something wrong then off you go. Sorry. I got what I wanted already. Now I shall continue living my own life in my own little world like I used to be in :)

Other than the drama, I guess everything else is just great :] Oh! Wait! Assignments! WTH. I need to finish Law, Computer, and English assignments. Haihh. I'm not complaining much arh. My break starts this Thursday.. a week of freedom before... before....

BTN!

jeng jeng jeng jeeeeng!

Biro tatanegara with Pak Raden!

I seriously don't know why they put "with Pak Raden" at the back of that sentence. It doesn't add much to the commercial value. It's better off saying "Biro Tatanegara... with FREE FOOD!" THEN I'll be like. Ohshyt! I wanna go! I wanna go!

Well lets move on to lighter things.

This is the first time in my life I've been living outside my own house for more than a month (yeah, sad, for you perhaps) and I have come to terms that..

People with mistakenly take your room as their own and take all your keropok and sweets.
your syrup, is, well apparently, everyone else's syrup.
So is your iron.
and your stationeries.
Your books are floating properties. nobody really owns anything.
When you lost something, just check the next room.
when they mock you, it means that they somewhat kinda care :]

hehe. oh reality, never fail me. I love the feeling of brotherhood here. Never truly felt that before. Feels like destiny :) But then again, I still have a lot to be done!

Well, see you all soon. I gotta go get my sweater. (Guess where it is?? The next room! :p) haha. bye!

I'm up at 4am because tomorrow's a saturday.

2009-07-03T14:04:00.000-07:00

Okay let's see. Let's blog.

First of all, to all of you who are not aware, I'm not in Kota Kinabalu. I'm doing law foundation at Uitm Shah Alam. So far? It's been great. But it's wierd, The first few days I was here, I patched up things with one of the people I care about the most. Wow. Funny how life works. Ah well. Let this be the beginning of a new path I'll take in maintaining (or rather, not losing) relationships :]

I don't have Internet here yet so it's hard to blog and stuff but I'll try.

Okay, I'm taking the fast track foundation here at Uitm, meaning to say, I just got one year to finish studying what other people need to finish in two years. I NEED TO BE FASTER ABOUT A YEAR! Fuh. As if that's not pressure enough, I'm in the same class with one of the smartest guys I have ever known in my almost 18 years of living! (Note, My birthday's on the 14th of August. Post me presents.)

Second pressure: I'm just taking foundation. DO YOU KNOW WHAT ARE THE REQUIREMENTS FOR ME TO ADVANCE TO DEGREE LEVEL?! *deep breaths* Okay, a CGPA of 3.5 minimum, and MUET, band 4. the first time I heard it, I was like. oh okay. three? that's cute. Then I found out the perfect score was four. That's like at least 9As in SPM without Cs or B4s!

*Star Wars fight sequence background music*

Oh, I just love that background music. I'm suppose to be studying hstory right now but here I am blogging. Yeah, I jut love you people. haha. On another story, I thank God for placing me here, I think I wouldn't have it any other way. People here are nice, food here is good, studies here are whole and the atmosphere is awesome. My dorm is sorrounded by greenery! :D Senang bernafas :)

I went for a solo trip to Melaka last week. It was fun. Didn't get to experience much of it though, time constraints. I stayed at MMU Melaka, Zubayr's and Syafiq's crib. Wo, that place is awesome. You can play Counter Strike with the WHOLE ENTIRE APARTMENT, from the ground floor to the 18th floor. That my friend, is the beauty of university. Oh, plus, they don't have the number 4 on the elevator. It's 3, then 3A, if 13, its 13A afterwards. haha. Yeah you guessed it, ramai Cina there.

Favourite past time here? Reading books. hahahaha. Okay I could only hold that laugh for 2 seconds. Every night, it's "Penghulu! jom main poker!". haha. poker night every night. What's at stake? candy, or, if you're a power gambler, your 3-in-1 drinks. Then we bet who's gonna gonna get a toothache first. Good fun.

Yes. we're still trying to get the hang of it. This 'law' thingy. hehe. wish me luck!

Maybe I'll supply you people with pics of Uitm next time. But for now, I hear the Subuh Azan calling :] So take care, and people, please don't lose contact with me okay :) Leave a comment,a comment on my chatbox on the right or in my facebook ;) I'll be back in KK during Raya, so prepare thy kuih raya! :D

Off to sleep in the air conditioned Bilik Bacaan! :D

A post a week before Shah Alam!

2009-05-16T14:25:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time since my last real serious post :o

For those of you that keep track of my blog layouts, you'd find that my layouts evolve from simple, pre-made, stolid canvas to custom-designed poorly colour coordinated web landscape..

But I'll stop evolving my layouts now, and focus on other stuff. Mainly because I'm gonna be off to UITM Shah Alam on the 23rd. Taking up law definitely. It's been a fun run not knowing what you're gonna do, really. But now time to get serious! (sorta. haha.)

Well I'm less than a week away from boarding my early morning flight to KLIA, and I have to wake up early later to meet Surya. wonder how is that gonna go. We're both flat broke and my car doesn't run on spit. Note to surya: You owe me BIG for asking me to wake up so freakin early!!

Well let's go back to happier things. Boston Legal is back on TV! But seriously though, you know those shows where in the beginning it says stuff like "parental discretion is advised"? Well you really gotta have all the discretion you can get with this show. As funny, engaging and witty it may be, you gotta understand that some things are just better unsaid. They poke fun at almost everything.

Here's one of the funnier clips from the show..

huh. They give me false hope about becoming a lawyer. No way being a lwayer can be that fun! But not everything is laughed at here. One of the few reasons this show interests me is that it makes me realise how bad this world is, and how it's becoming worse. it captivates and moves me in ways I can't imagine a TV show would. here's a sample. If you didn't watch the video above, you gotta at least listen to this speech here. This is actually what made that tipping point critical decision for me to take up law...

Hmm. oh well. you people take care when I'm gone! I think I'll keep on updating this blog regularly in Shah Alam, hopefully I have the time to do that. They say my course very demanding one. 2 foundation semesters, IN LAW?! whoa. a year to learn everything I need before getting a degree :o

Gosh I'm sleepy. well, I gotta go, Gotta meet Surya later -.-" haha. Good Morning!!

Higher Education here I Come!

2009-04-21T08:16:00.001-07:00

I'm applying for Creative Multimedia Foundation in Multimedia University.

Why? Honestly because there's an olympic size swimming pool there! Really! covered summore!

Think of all the work out I'll get..

haha. maybe that's too much of an exaggeration. But really, I guess this is one of the private universities that convinced me enough to even consider going there even when the fee is quite costly. Almost ten thousand bucks for foundation studies. that's a year of study. A degree is a whole other story. Compared to Matriks, which is free, and they actually give you money every month, that's a lot of money.

MyGawd. Why did I slept when they all were informed about the Matriks application??

For people who don't know, if you're taking foundation, you probably have a vague vision of what you wanna do in the future. Here's my vague vision. After the foundation, I'll take a degree in Media Innovation (Sounds cool kan??) and at last, open a website-making firm or do some kinda business using the awesomeness of the internet. I've seen the websites the students there make. It's phenomenal! They don't just make websites. They design products even. I saw a booth they designed for DBP. Coolness. Shyt. I wish I could show you people but I forgot to take the soft copy of those stuff.

Maybe it's a sign. In Labuan, the chocolates are cheap! And you know what they say, chocolates = fatness. There's a gym at MMU. And Gym = Girls working out A toned body. Haha. Oh how I wish.

p/s: don't tell my parents I applied okay?
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Off to photocopy my SPM results! Chao!

hrrmm..

2009-04-18T08:23:00.001-07:00

I feel empty inside :((

Today I am happy.

2009-04-15T10:00:00.000-07:00

Today I'm happy. Why? I went to a cyber cafe today.

Hahaha. yeah. Life's pretty pathetic if I only got excited because of that. No lah, actually, I really did go to a cyber cafe today, and I saw somebody looking at someone's Facebook profile and he was laughing. He was laughing because of the quiz I made! Have you seen it?

Jadi kau ingat kau urang Sabah la ni kunun?
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That's the old version, you people should really try the extended version.. hahaha. "Baru kamu tau!"

I don't know, its fun seeing some stranger take delight in something you've made.. :]

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*Smiles*

The Beatles' In My Life

2009-04-09T03:24:00.000-07:00

Here's a song I'd love to share with you :D

The Beatles - In My Life

Really, I thought The Beatles were just some old popular band from the.. 50s? 60s? But I was wrong after I heard this song. I mean, I've heard a lot of their songs but this song really brings out the genius of how they convey music.

Even though this song clearly tells about someone who has aged considerably, I could feel the emotions radiated from the song. The melodies are superb, it flows with how you listen to the song. Even the quick guitar riffs didn't bother me much. In fact, that made me smile for some reason. Oh, did I mention the lyrics are cute? :D

At least I managed to get this post done..

2009-03-29T12:05:00.000-07:00

Death is inevitable. It's sure is going to happen no matter what. Yet, so few people can handle it unaffected. I've never knew any person personally who wouldn't be unaffected by death, even if that death occurred onto somebody they barely even knew. What if I told you my my hamster died? You'd feel a little bit sorry for me right? maybe some of you wouldn't be, because you probably know I don't have a pet hamster.

Well, the reason this came up is because of an interesting concept that we call "at least". It's something to use when you want to make something bad sounds less hurtful. I'm sure you people are familiar with this phenomenon. Hmm.. A few people my age I sorta kinda know passed away last year actually. Maybe that could be another reason this came up?

It's like,

If I die tonight, at least...

My friends wouldn't have to listen to my racial slurs and incorrect political comments
Teachers wouldn't have to tolerate my hot-hotheadedness and my bad handwriting..
my brothers would get to use the computer more..
less people would get ripped off of their cash
less people will get freeloaded by me
More ears will be saved from my bad singing
Less people will say "No, that's not red, that's green!"
I can save the anger and bitterness of some people
The who got number 13 in class would be number 12

Hmmm.. Makes you think. What if you really answer God's calling soon? What will other people's "At least" be for you?

At least he/she had a good life. Well did you had a good life?

At least he/she died doing what he/she loved doing. Are you stuck doing what other people want you to do?

Hmmm....

Roving around thoughts in my mind..

2009-03-16T06:39:00.000-07:00

Okay, probably most of you know already my results for SPM. 7As and 4Bs. To break it down even more, 3A1s, 4A2s, 3B3s, 1B4 :] Subjects? hmm. Naaahh. Ask me personally. Would love to hear from you. (insert sarcastic remarks here. hahaha)

The question of "So, what's next", I cannot answer with a straight face (yet) because I have to talk with the parents first. It's their money supporting my education.. But one thing I do know, I need to curb some of my bad habits or at least decrease them before I go into college/local university/abroad so I won't get punched in the face. No more gangs to clean up my dirty work -.-"

So, here are some major complaints thrown to me by numerous people that I can recall on-the-spot. hopefully sometime in the future, I'll look back at this and say "hmmm.. I gotta work on that. After dinner."

"Kamu ingat kamu pandai sangat?"

- Qay and arrogance go together like caramel and more caramel, provided that you like caramel to begin with. It's not that I don't listen, it's just sometimes people talk stuff that's not worth listening to. But yeah la, I realise, it's better to just listen. practice it or not, I guess that's a different story. I mean I see everyone complain during a football game saying you passing it the wrong way, the defenders are stupid, the referee's blind when in fact the highest most complainers ever went in football is wakil kelas or sekolah only. but funny. they see the WHOLE field back-to-back during a football match. Which means they know what's going on there on that time. Maybe what they say is plausible to be considered. But then again, I didn't really get my 7As by listening to people :p (Ohcrap. I REALLY need to work on this arrogance thing)

"That's not a very nice thing to say..."

- 'lepas cakap'has not been so much a foe to me until a few weeks back when I offended the wrong person. It's really cause i have a low brain-to-mouth tolerance. If I don't say it when I think it, I can forget about it. I need to find a notebook to write all my insults and just throw them back on someone who's not so sensitive. haha. So troublesome la wanna bring those heavy notebooks and pens.. which brings me to my next problem..

"punyalaaa pemalas kau ni Qay."

- Study, malas. carry stuff, malas.. clean the dishes, malas... eat.. hmmm.. I'll get back to you on that one. I think by nature everyone's lazy. but they don't show it as well I do. hahaha. I guess sometimes expressing your true self is not such a good thing.. Oh, maybe this excuse would save me: actually I take time to ponder a bit about things I'm about to do to see how much significance it holds (this is what we call long-term effects) so in the time I take to ponder, that thing just sort of expired. (awesome save!) ;P Hey you can't blame me for being a visionary right? Oh gosh I have an excuse for everything.

"Alaa Qay tinggal satu ja ni.."

- Freeloading sucks, when you're with me. there's even a saying about it (courtesy of me of course) 'kalau dihulur, Qayyum menarik. Lepas tu minta lagi. dan lagi. dan lagi' So, the best way to stop me from freeloading is not offer me anything. and I mean anything and everything. I freeload anything from attention to cookies.

Abdul Qayyum

- my name just looks awesome with that font eh?

Hahaha. anywho, I guess that's all for now larh. hope this post didn't leave you yawning for less ;) eh, please tell me ah if my yellow coloured fonts bikin sakit mata okay? I'm colourblind, I wouldn't know.. :) sorryyyyy...

P.S Don't you people love that new font?? :D

announcement!

2009-03-07T10:44:00.000-08:00

This blog is under SERIOUS RENOVATION.

Will be back A.S.A.P :]

closure

2009-03-05T07:00:00.000-08:00

This blog is currently

CLOSED!

Due to the absence of my external hard drive where I keep most, if not, all of my digital things, I cannot edit or do practically anything to this blog anymore. My pictures, videos, music, designs are all gone.

So, this blog will be re-opened if I recover my hard drive.. If it goes missing forever, I think I'll just re-design my blog lah. freakin troublesome.

Damn.

be alert, I can't be alert alone :p

2009-02-26T09:02:00.000-08:00

I know my blog now is mostly visited by teens (coz i have no friends above 19) and it stresses me out that youths today don't get to know the political situation here in Malaysia. That can lead to misinterpretations and people can really get the wrong ideas about people who run the country. So, here's a little breakdown of your favourite political 'figures' and what's currently going on =D

Karpal Singh: He's and ex-lawyer turned politician who wants to sue Sultan Azlan Shah (Perak), still in process but heavily protested. Two live bullets were posted to him (amongst other threats). Keras kepala, probably influenced by the new movie Singh is Kinng. Recently he dubbed Pemuda UMNO as "celaka".

Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi: Our Prime Minister (Duh.), Going to resign soon in March. Handing over administration to Najib. Or so he says.. Some people bringing forward ideas on changing how we pick our PM next time.

Elizabeth Wong: She's the ADUN for Bukit Lanjan. The guys probably know all about this. Her nude pics which were apparently took while she was asleep is leaked through the internet. Ex-boyfriend is main suspect and she's pressured into resigning. Case is now toned down. she went on vacation overseas (leave extended) and even the sultan got involved in the resolution but at least, our sultan asked the higher authority of PKR to solve the problem.

Chua Soi Lek: An ex-psychiatrist who was caught literally with his pants down in a hotel room a few while back. He resigned from his posts in the government a short while after the case is leaked. Now he's gonna be on trial for oral sex accusations (coz of the DVDlah obviously) and now he's slowing trying to garner support from Sabahans by appearing on Sabah-operated newspapers. He tries to blame everyone for the wrong decisions he make. Don't we all? Oh! he has a blog too. hooray.

Datuk Seri Ir. Haji Mohammad Nizar Jamaluddin: Current/former Menteri Besar of Perak. Nobody keeps track. just vacated the official residence for the Menteri Besar at Jalan Raja DiHilir because he was told to by the state secretary. Sultan asked him to step down because BN finally gathered enough people to form Perak's government. He's still defending his right to not resign due to technical flaws in BN's majority.

fuh. banyak drama. hahaha. Even I can't keep up sometimes. Well, that's all for now folks :]

Our deepest fear

2009-02-24T05:54:00.000-08:00

Our Deepest Fear

by Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear in that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the World.
There is nothing enlightening about shrinking
so that other people won’t feel unsure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.

As we let our own Light shine,
we consciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others."

extraordinary-ness :]

2009-02-08T11:43:00.000-08:00

How do you define extraordinary?

How do you look at a person and determine whether or not to establish that person is extraordinary or not? Life's not made up of big, memorable splashes, or at least that's the case for me, an ordinary person. My life is quite dictated by the little choices I make here and there every day.

Just think, form 5s will get so worked up about SPM in the early goings of the year and then by the time it's over, some dared to say they miss school and desire to go back. Look at me, more than 2 months of lazing around the house doing nothing. of course, I don't feel those two months coz I wake up every day to a new day, not a new month. Days turn into weeks, eventually turn into months. Now that's not extraordinary, it's not even ordinary. It's lame. My ordinary friends find jobs and get money.. and treat me for lunch. hehehe.

Well, enough about me (though I know you'd love to hear more) :p
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Let's go back to extraordinary-ness, or to be more grammatically correct, awesomeness. I brought this up because I see my friends day by day, doing ordinary stuff, but in fact, for them to do 'ordinary' stuff, requires them to pull more weight and put in more effort. If that is how they live life day by day, can you still consider those tasks ordinary to them?

To simplify, take a horse. a horse that's bred for carrying heavy weights. every day that horse pulls about 15 chopped logs. it does its task every day, no complaints. It's well fed and well trained. So 15 logs a day is considered normal for it right since that's the only thing it's been doing since forever? Suddenly, food supplies are halved. No more trainer for the horse. The trainer dies. If this goes on continuosly for 2 months and in that 2 months the horse is still forced to carry 15 logs a day, would that task still be considered normal for the horse? I'ts all the hidden costs, or emotional weight of doing things that makes me see a person from another angle, another view so to speak.

(Okay maybe that horse example wasn't as simple as thought) :]

Hope the picture calmed down your brain :p
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Okay, here's a boy named Ralph. Ralph Lauren Thaddeus. I just know him from school. Small boy, fairly good looking. Goes to school like every other kid, stresses out about exams like every other boy, hangs out, plays games. Sure sure. Everything looks normal. But wait! He stars in Equus: The Play, for 7 stage performances. Went to Korea for a student exchange program last year, joined drama competitions longer than me (bagged some best actor awards along the way) and then some. He still needs to sit for exams and stuff, scored straight As for his PMR. Stayed humble.

Okay, Ralph could be a typical example of a smartass. How about the less intelligent ones?

(hahaha. sorry to make it sound somewhat demeaning)
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Nur Surya somethingsomething :] What's wrong with her? a lot really. hahaha. okay, maybe not that much. Just that she's gay :p I just find somebody who works at Starbucks from 6pm until closing, helped out with the closing (at midnight), still find time to go online until about 4am. Most people would just snooze away to dreamland. Okay, maybe staying up late is not such a big deal for an 18-year-old. This girl actually gave up her CNY money (and a lot of her other money) for her brother(s) with the excuse "If I don't give it to them, they'd ask from dad" Would you give up cash to your siblings so they wouldn't ask for some from your dad?

Now hear this and guess how would this guy end up in the future.. When he was young, he went to school sometimes with his school shoes in a plastic bag and walked barefoot through jungle tracks with the risk of wild boars chasing him and his siblings on the way (and they did chase him on occasions!), stole fruits from chinese cemeteries, just barely passed SPM, brave enough to venture into a big city with no contacts with high hopes.. In the end, he worked hard and he was presented the oppurtunity to go to USA to study telecommunications, even when he didn't have a degree or anything. In his mid 30s, he risked so much to start a business and Yeeeaaahh.. above all, he turned out to be my dad :] and I wouldn't want to have it any other way ;)

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Happy Belated Birthday Dad! :D

You shall always be an inspiration and loved :]

Fighting unrealistic feelings

2009-02-06T14:18:00.001-08:00

Time has it's ways to show you the reason for living :]

Wow. Today I went to Sutera Harbour's Blue Lagoon for some farewell gathering for my friend, Syafiqah, who's going to Australia to study this Sunday. Lucky her. Eh, wait. I think it's more of lucky me. Why? Free karaoke, free food, drinks, and we went to Jugs to dance. haha. okay la. That doesn't beat going to Australia to study but it's still nice.

It's 6:30am, birds are chirping and cockerels are... cocking? well whatever it is they do, it's a beautiful day today. La Salle sports day is today! oh what joy. Their field is filled with puddles of water. I feel a mud-fest coming. I guess my brothers are gonna miss this sports day coz they're not up yet.. Its a Saturday, who could blame them? me? Mum and dad are still sleeping, too.

I'm actually planning on going to the sports day. I mean, I went to convent's (sorta), Seri Insan's (sorta), and Maktab Sabah's (definitely!). Would be awkward if I didn't go to my own school's sports day. But then again, me going there would make so little difference whatsoever. hmmmm. Maybe I'll just sleep in for today :D

Gah. I smell like smoke. Goodbye people :D

Gtg bath and stuff. Selamat pagi!

You'll never know how much I cared :]

2009-01-26T22:42:00.000-08:00

Letting go is harsh. It's easy, really. Just forget about someone or something. Our brain is more than capable in doing that particular task. Just shut off everything that could possibly remind you of that person. Easy sounding, right? Just, when your brain wants to do something but if your heart refuses, it ain't gonna happen.

Here's a translated song (Malay-Indonesian to English)
It has a lot of meaning and just thought I'd share it with you guys..

Eh, yeah, I changed some of the lyrics.. coz I malas write direct translation :] hehehe. But I try to translate it as direct as possible..

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Pemuja Rahasia / Secret Admirer - Sheila on 7
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I start my day with a hope that you,

be in good health and happy wherever you are,

Before you forget me worse,

Before you leave me further.
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I never expect you to,

miss my pathetic presence,

I just want you whenever and wherever you look at me,

your heart will echo as mine,
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This is the guy that fell for you,

This is the guy that will always adore you,

I'm the person who puts flowers,

and drop riddles of love on your desk,
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I'll always be watching you,

Feeling your grace from behind your shadows,

And please just let me be your admirer,

Don't ever care about my feelings,

calm down my heart's desire,

I don't even have the hearts to touch you.

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Maybe you'll never know,

how easy it is to be astonished by you,

and maybe you'll never realize,

how easy it is to love you.
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I'll always be the one who admires you,

I'll always be the one who see you from the edge of my eye,

I'll always be the one who adores you,

You'll always be the the one who captivates me
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Only with this feeling of absence without you,
I live my life day by day,
With the footprints you left,
this life bears somewhat meaning,
Til forever I only could be your admirer,
Til forever I'll be missing you.

Here's the original video and song (sangat2 cute!!):
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What's the point of all this?? Haha. Well, actually I'm trying to say that..

Sometimes, being ignored or neglected is better than being hurt :]

support local acts!

2009-01-15T10:19:00.001-08:00

Hey! I made a big fuss about not being inspired to blog but then I realised that this blog is not gonna mean anything to anybody anytime soon.. But it makes me happy to blog, really :] Isn't that simple thing a good enough reason to blog? Being happy is underrated. Come on people. Do whatever that makes you happy :D just make sure its safe k :]

Oh, and besides, I was actually partly inspired by one incident while I was in Kuala Lumpur, In Mid Valley's MPH Bookstore to be exact.. I was browsing around waiting for my movie to start. I got tired and leaned on a bookshelf and guess who passed in front of me??

Yes. Kenny Sia. Hahaha.I thought, gosh. this must be a sign. So here I am blogging :)

You know, this whole solo KL trip made me appreciate more of our local art and music scene. I used to think that local artists only say that don't support piracy, buy original or stuff like that, they actually act it out and I got to see that when I visited the home of the world's tallest twin towers. try look:

Bunkface, famous for the song Silly Lilly and Situasi, gave the crowd a heck of a performance, leaving us (yes me included) wanting for an encore. They really are crowd pleasers and they give out free stickers! haha. okay.. Another local band, Komplot, actually went down to sell their CDs themselves and take pictures with the fans. Gotta admire the love for their fans :] They actually sparked my interest in psychedelic rock, a genre I never heard before. of course, I got their CD :D

Oh that's Yuna, I have no idea how old she is but she sounds like Norah Jones fused with a little hint of Nelly Furtado.. And she plays the guitar! hehe. Her band rocks! :D She took a picture with me even when she's in a serious rush.. thanks! Got her CD for Sarah too.. autographed! :p check her out at http://www.myspace.com/yunaroomrecords

Well that pretty much wraps up a snippet of my experience in KL.

I got a 'souvenir' from Youth09.. hehehehe...

Will be back with a new post soon guys and gals!

oh, here's some videos of our local acts:

Bunkface's bunkface anthem and Yuna's Rocket.

uninspired.

2009-01-12T11:34:00.000-08:00

First of all, I gotta say I'm highly satisfied with my current blog layout :D
I reached my target of 80% total Qayness. hehehe.

I want to blog. but I'm in a damn serious need of inspiration..

Well, till then people. heh. freakin uninspired. So here's two funny pictures I got off the web:

Ngeh. Bosan.

KL first post

2009-01-08T10:58:00.000-08:00

It's my third day in our nation's capital, Kuala Lumpur.
This place is awesome. I can go practically around anywhere here with the developed public transport system..

I'm staying at my uncle's place at Ampang, which is like. 30, 40 minutes from the city center? gosh. No wonder he's fit. Every day, take train go work. lengthy walks, crowded trains, you do the maths. Oh! And I'm seriously losing sleep over Nintendo Wii! It's freakin addictive. Tiring, but heck its fun. Been trying out Nintendo sport, its so cool. You get to move around with a stick and smacking around virtual balls. Feels real.

Gosh. Now baru I realise what's wrong in that last sentence. hahaha. okay, sexual innuendos aside, I'm seriously looking forward to next Saturday's Youth09. I even checked out PWTC yesterday. It looks like a massive event and youthsays.com users are giving great push and response.. But. but. but. I'm broke! Since this is not KK and I don't have friends to freeload... You're gonna have to bank in money to blanja me. e-mail me for my bank account number.

Hahahaha. Okay, that was a joke.. Don't check your wallet for money (yet) :p Well. Planning on going to Sunway Lagoon in a few hours :] Hopefully nothing changed since the last time I went there.. except the admission price. It could be lower :p

Well. i guess I just wanted to fill up this blog.. hehe sorry :} I'll come back with more posts after Youth09.. For now I'm gonna enjoy my stay here at KL.. Hm. Maybe I'll visit the Planetarium :D See ya!

Announcement again jo.

2009-01-08T07:16:00.000-08:00

Qay will be back blogging when he finishes with customising this blog :]

Moving!

2008-12-29T02:53:00.000-08:00

Announcement!

Lexiconicalism.blogspot.com

is moving to

lexicorn.blogspot.com

however, the alternative link, lexicorn.co.nr will still be in use..

Why? Coz lexiconicalism is too friggin long! hahaha.

This is the only announcement of this as I will not further post this move anywhere else.

Oh, plus, this blog is in the process of transformation, again :]
Since I'm a high-school graduate, I'll make this blog a bit more mature in terms of posting and design.. Don't worry, it'll still be fun! :)

I could be wrong

2008-12-24T06:08:00.000-08:00

Hahaha. This is sad.

I realise, all I have is my writing. I can't play musical instruments, I can't draw (not properly at least), I'm not so smart, I don't excel in sports, I don't communicate well with people, I'm not tech-savvy or anything of the sort, I don't do poetry or write beautiful lyrics, I'm bad with numbers and don't have an eye for fixing things.. all i have is my. freakin. writing...

Oh well. let's not dwell in the sadness of the present and let's think about the uncertainty of the future ahead of you and me. Well, scratch that uncertainty part if you have precognition abilities.But I doubt you do, because if you do, you'd know this post would be boring and you would not even be reading this.

Wow. even my writing ability is decreasing in quality. "Sucks for you" , if I were to quote Surya. Gotta develop a new talent fast.

Any ideas, inform me.. I got a lot of time :]

But just to save your time, here are stome stuff I already tried and eventually failed. It was a subtle but painful failure :)

Playing Yoyo
Collecting hotwheels
Collecting stamps (No, seriously! I tried this before!)
plasticine art

Haha. Yeah I guess I didn't try hard enough.. All I try also nonsense this xD

A little update of sort..

2008-12-18T22:22:00.000-08:00

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It seems like every girl I know are having their period now.
Honestly, I don't think I'd ever understand the pain, dynamics and inner working of girls in in their period. It's like friendster said, "It's complicated"
Oh well, that's how life goes :]
Hope you people get well soon! =D
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First on the agenda, Surya's birthday. Happy birthday Surya!

(Yeah, this is how long I'm gonna type for your birthday in my blog, everything else is in the card) =P

but I will post the A4 size card I made you :]

Behold!-

Oh! And I treated myself for a haircut. Dang. Now my hair looks longer! Really!

It looks longer AFTER cutting! haha. But Surya called it gay. Coz it's gay. No, she's gay. :p oh well.

Steffi was the one who cut my hair. You should check her out and also that place where she studies the art of cutting hair. G cuts, 5th floor Palm Square Centre Point. Cut and wash only RM7. Just say my name :p

I guess a few pics would be fine.. here!

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And the final product....
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Yay I can finally wear a cap! :D hehe.

Okay, Since I have literally nothing to do this holiday season, I'm gonna be at Kuala Lumpur to attend and possibly volounteer for Youth'09, for more information, just head on to http://youthmalaysia.com/youth09, or you can have engaging and somewhat exhilirating talks and opinions with other youths at http://youthsays.com/ It's pretty awesome but just bare with the immaturettes.. We're all friends righttt? :D yeah, btw, anybody who plans to go KL or anywhere near there next month, gimme a head's up alright?

So yeah, I've been going out and going back home as late as 6a.m at times. I dunno lah. new to this freedom this perhaps? not really. but it's fun, when you have cash. Someone really needs to blanja me. hahaha. I'm still editing the ghost hunting video we all put together a few weeks back. So far they're only whispers and footsteps.. I'll be updating that soon. gotta do more research.

Double Prosperity Burger AWESOME! But can be bigger though. And the black pepper less kick than usual. MegaMac was bigger and better, But both also expensive, so heh..

Well I gotta eat first so I guess I'll be away for now. But any who, leave me comments, visit my facebook or bring me play futsal, hope to see you guys soon!

Oh btw, SCHOOL'S OPENING SOON! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Have fun you school-goers :p

Time for my SPM review :D

2008-12-11T11:06:00.000-08:00

My 3 count

Three facts, one verdict.

Bahasa Malaysia

- My essays were quite good I guess. A lot of nice phrases but lack of big words. Experimented on ringkasan.
- Screwed up big time on the proverb section.
- wrote half-nonsense in the Komsas part.

Verdict: I could do better than an A2, but I'm not hoping much.

English

- Paper one was quite a challenge, unfamiliar with literature question.
- 10 pages of essays
- Could have eror resulted from over-confidence

Verdict: If Surya had no problems with it, I guess I'll aim for A1.

Mathematics

- pretty confident with paper one
- A few critical question were carelessly done in paper 2
- Didn't complete paper 2 section B

Verdict: Since the graph is gonna go up, I'm gunning for a B3. It could be lower. Not really expecting an A but there's a bit of hope.

Sejarah

- Bad relationship with teacher shortly before SPM, I got something to prove.

- Paper one, quite impressive. Paper 2 had some unfamiliarity issues.

- Essays were KBKK, opened room for careless unforseen errors, made some stupid luck experiments.

Verdict: well, honestly, I think all that sleeping in class and bask-sashing the teacher would bite me back in the ass. B3.

Pendidikan Islam

- Screwed up some easy questions in paper 1

- poor judgement in picking questions in paper 1 section B

- Paper 2 was as usual, thinking skills. Not too worried about that but my tajwid needs some brushing up.

Verdict: Well, if my trial is any worth of a testament of proof of my Islamic studies ability, I guess I can aim for a subtle A2, hopefully the graph scores go down.

Additional Mathematics

- actually i'm pretty confident with paper 1. A potential high grade pass.

- Paper 2? HAHAHAHAHA. Direct from hell. Don't ask.

- I didn't do half of paper 2.

Verdict: C5. gonna fall off the ladder into a pile of plywood with a lot of rusty nails embedded in them. Let's hope everyone else screws up too. gosh I'm so evil oh.

Physics

- One of the easiest paper 1 ever. like seriously. ever.

- subjective questions were okay. no flying colours, but there will be colours.

- Experiments were right on the money, all predictions came true.

Verdict: Between B3 and A2. I don't think its up to the A1 level, even if the graph scores go down. Some unavoidable petty mistakes

Chemistry

- all equation questions, HANTAM!

- Pretty confident about essays. but maybe too confident..

- some predictions were deathly accurate.

Verdict: Was never really that good in chemistry. Often times when I thought I was right about something, it's the opposite.. so to play it safe, B4 or B3. Thank god for the predictions, or the verdict could be lower.

Biology

- Very lucky in paper one, bad judgment in some medium hard questions

- Lack of practice in structure question, but paper 3 can back up

- Fairly multitudinous mistakes in essay question(s) and of course I wrote a lot of crap.

Verdict: I still don't know why I didn't drop Bio. B4, B3 at best.

English for Science and Technology

- Stupid mistakes in paper 1, but only a few

- hasty in doing structure questions

- A few irrelevant points in the report but colourful and boastful science related phrases

Verdict: Oh, Come on. It's EST. A1. I could be wrong though, coz if you're wrong one question in structure, there's a potential domino effect.

Literature in English

- Thank God we did the fun novel, Holes. Was fun doing the questions too.

- Lack of planning important points. Just wrote anything that comes to mind.

- Longest paper I ever did write. 17 pages in 2 and a half hour. woot woot!

Verdict: Less examples than normal, but hints and ideas were subtly placed in the sentences, I guess I'll be alright.. But one problem, it's an elective subject so the graph score would be low.. So yes, A2.

What I’ve been up to lately, seriously.

2008-12-09T09:22:00.000-08:00

Wow. It's been a long time since my last 'real' post here right? Yeah I thought so..

Well keep on waiting people :D

I just came home from Brunei, and it's one in the morning anyway so I'll be sleeping in a moment :p

But don't worry, I won't leave you totally hanging. Here's one blog I like to share:

Mary's blog post with my SPM doodles on it!

The blog is awesome and nice and... (Well honestly I just wanted to share with you people some of my SPM doodles) Sorry, Mary. I'll blog about you soon :]

Hehehehe. Comments yah? Trust me, a few words from you can result in hundreds of words from me in reply :] thanks in advance!

Oh p/s, In Mary's blog, I'm kuih ;] Mr. Kuih. Waiiiit! Mr. Multicolouredkuihlapis :D

Coz I'm going away, just for a few days

2008-12-06T19:53:00.000-08:00

Going Brunei for the coming Hari Raya Aidil-adha:D

I'll blog like *censored* after my return :]

(hopefully)

Gotta fnish up with some stuff first. Namely:

Video editing
Sleep
Designing some vector art
Next Year's bowling shirt designs
Mingling with family :D
Getting back my blogging spirit
Download new music!
and of course, the cliche etc etc etc. So yeah, etc people.

Well, Have fun without me :)

Happy Hari Raya Haji

GodBless yo!

My first post-SPM blog post, sucks.

2008-11-29T08:36:00.000-08:00

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Realisation: I trust you all will agree that my blog has sort of a lack of pictures..

Well, here's the thing, they say a picture paints a thousand words.

But heck, I'll let my thousand words actually say a thousand words :p

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"I think BN's keeping their position in Malaysia is coz they play on Islam"

"I think this whole ketuanan melayu should be abolished"

"The Chinese were desperate back then.."

"No, they're just covering up all the money laundering he did back when he was in charge.."

Well, I'm in full support of free speech and freedom of our own opinion as long as it's constructive and you know, not stupid? It really pisses me off when all my friends try to sound so 'political' and stuff when all they do is judge current events.. Wow. a puppet of propaganda, how very informative of you.
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I hate it when the youths start to be caught up in this whole thing. Don't get me wrong but I'm okay with the verbal, non-direct involvement of people my age on politics in Malaysia. I mean, they're supposed to, aren't they? It's good exposure. But it gets a little bit annoying when they do it without any knowledge in history. They tell me politics has nothing to do with history. Uh, hello? Politics work because of history. Huh, yeah flunking history is not such a big deal huh?
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But really, maybe it's the political situation here. Here, when you're caught with your pants down or with no pants at all, you still can maintain... let's say.... a fairly high post in a big political party? I don't know man. political fogs and shifts influence young people in a big way. And worst of all, we don't realise it. Eventually we'll start to complain minyak naik la, gula naik la, beras naik la. But really, how many of us really looked into it? then of course, they'll blame the government. They always do. Oh suck it up people.

Not really saying our government is flawless, coz it's not. you should see parliament proceedings.
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Just, when you talk about politics, Find out why something's there before you get all judgy.. And please, try not to just throw out uneducated guesses but make an effort to back up what you say, okay? You'll change people's mind better when you do it with at least a brain. But hey, I think we're doing pretty okay for an independent nation that's barely 51 years old. Don't you think?
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nights~

It's toooooooo late... I'm holding on a rope got me ten feet off the ground..

2008-11-20T05:53:00.000-08:00

SPM is a serious wake up call oh! like. really. Yeah, sounds like a good thing but one problem for me though, it's too late already for me to wake up.
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But looking at the postive side.. At least I get the chance to warn you right?? :D
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Hey all you form 4s and potential form 5s,
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Go. Freakin. STUDY.
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Seriously, they lower the standards for some of the questions this year like Sejarah after so many poeple didn't do well last year so if we all excel this year, I wish you all the best coz it's almost certain they will jack up the standards next year. Good luck in advance!

Bright side for you all: Addmaths paper this year felt like the Addmaths paper from hell. Paper 2 especially.

This is not so much as a blogpost but simply a precautionary advice :]

Now this is a blogpost -
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I've been eating dinner at Damai Plaza for I don't know how many consecutive days already! Gah. Expensive food. Why? I stay at the library until night breaks during SPM season. doesn't do much tho coz my friends are there. We just talk alot. and then sekejap sekejap turun bawah. lepak and stuff. gaaaahh. Then one person will go all "Ui bah, cari makan kita." And then we all go find food. The most I can read at the library is one or two chapter when they're around -.- thank God RCH's Curry Laksa makes me happppeeeeee :D

And. And. Barack 'niceteeth' Obama won the USA general ~~erection~~ election! :D congrats to that guy. Being a cool president during an all-time financial crisis, on-going war, health care issue overload, and a few shaky diplomatic ties can be tough. I just realised this. I think Obama's teeth has the same whiteness as McCain's hair xD

Yeah I'm colourblind but I know his teeth and his hair almost the same colour! :p

I'll be taking my English Literature SPM paper alone next wednesdayy. hahaha. I wonder how is it gonna be with my invigilator..
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"Errr.. can you not stare at me so much?"

"What else am I suppose to stare at? You're the only one here..."

"Don't you have like, other important things to do?"

"Are you supposed to be talking to me even?"

"Depends. are YOU supposed to be talking to me?"

"Damn. Fine, I'll do my paper."

After 15 minutes...
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"So, hey. yeah. Hi.. I'm bored. How's the paper going?"

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Wish me luck (again) people! :D

Weeeeeeee!!

2008-11-15T06:04:00.000-08:00

Doomsday, coming and counting..

Addmaths is on Tuesday!

And worse...

Addmaths is all day!

Haha. Nah. guys guys, it's just numbers.. and unknowns.. and variables.. and graphs.. and of course, more numbers!

"Ui! Quick! That's the square root of a pi??"

Trigonometry is murderrr!!

OK now I'm worrying..

The Journey so far..

2008-11-04T03:25:00.000-08:00

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S.P.M!

Let's get it on! Let's hope all the sleeping in class won't bite us back in the ass xD

Today's the 4th of November. SPM is on the 11th, next Tuesday. How many days left, I don't care really. I just wanna wake up that day and say to myself:
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"Okay Qay, this is it. The day that's gonna be your milestone or your grave. forget the bricks people throw at you, now you have enough to build your wall. Your time is now. Now let's go get that A."

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Yeah, That's just one of my vain, confident boosting nonsense. Here's my honest and sorta realistic target: 6A1, 3A2, 2B3. That B is my safety net. Always must have one or two 'sangkut' that. It's either a fact of life or my unfortunate luck. It's okay. I'll be expecting for the worst but try to get the best.

I'll really appreciate it if you people won't ask me "Hey Qay, how was SPM?" because I will lie to your face, and I don't wanna do that. Let me enjoy my freedom in peace bah! hehehe. And oh! I have absolutely no plans after SPM so if anyone wanna bring me do anything, just gimme a call..

I can't say the past two years has been fair to me but heck, even life's not fair. Just have to make do with everything you got I guess. The ties snapped, the new bonds formed, the cynical monologues and all the malfeasance and wound-healing. Can't complain much really. It all brought me here! And I like it here. I think I'll stay here for a long time.

Well I guess SPM will be one heck of a donnybrook with the paper because I think even if you did all the forecasts, targeted all the questions that you can, read all the books, it's still up to the paper itself. surprises can happen.. It happened before, hopefully it doesn't happen again la. I really don't wanna get too confident about this. but nevertheless, I'm confident. Let's just hope I can back this all up. Getting 14th in class for my trial did not contribute to my weird impudence. Forgive me. :]

I'll try to be online as much as I can during SPM. There's no use limiting my internet usage, right? I rather be chatting than studying stuff that will only go way over my head. Find me online, we chat okay? but I'll definitely sleep early larh..

HAHA! Like kids oh they all fight in parliament sometimes.
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"Who said that?!"

"Jelutong!"

"Take it back, take it back!"

"okay.. I take it back... with objections."

Think I'll join politics, just for kicks. It looks like fun oh! They get to talk trash and nobody seems to be stopping them. license to curse on TV comes with the job ka?? If yes, I want in! hehehe. I fnot also, I still want in xD I get to look fancy and be on TV. Ill just have to sit behind somebody who talks alot so I don't even have to speak to be on TV :D
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They make parliament enjoyable really. hehehe. Which reminds me, They're having their elections today at the States! Obama or McCain? I know there's no significance in me deciding who is better at being president but that's exactly why I''m gonna take a shot at it. I'll go for Obama. Not coz he's black or more charismatic or more academically qualified, but he has nice teeth. :]
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Its shineeeeeeee! :D his teeth is white like McCain's hair xDD

So people, until next time! :]

Just covering up paranoia..

2008-11-02T06:50:00.000-08:00

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Okay people, I miss the internet. Why? I went to H-factor Kota Kinabalu the other day and my parents bought a 40 inch TV! I was like.. whoa. seriously. it's huge! and if we get new furniture or anything, my family never fail to rearrange the whole house structure. So they plucked out all the wires connecting to the computer and modem and router and stuff and now everything's messed up.

But in the spirit of blogging and boredom, here's my...
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Things Qay can seriously (and preferably) do without

Green tea flavoured ice cream - like. seriously?!
Robbers with rainbow print jumpsuits because they think ski-masks are out of date.
soggy french fries.
CSI: Penampang - Next episode, who burnt down Servay?
the electric triangle. - Isn't the triangle like. fully metal already?
Cold chicken rice - eeewww.
spoiled milk. - You'll never know if it's spoiled or not until you pour it. then its too late.
Acoustic hip hop music - Need I say more?
Bio, physics, and chemistry practical books. They do nothing.
protozoa plushie.
A pilot that goes through the aeroplane's intercom saying "Okay.. I think I left the keys in my other pants.."
Math teachers who does moonwalks.
Carbonated carbon.
Bladder Control Issues
Rain pouring during my jogging days.
Vegetarian sharks.
two-wheeled tricycles.
A rooster who's an insomniac.
Wasabi overdose!
The High School Musical movie series - hahahaha! Sorry, really.. xD

Okay. I had no idea where that list came from. Goodbye people! :D

Okay let's break into song! :D

2008-10-22T09:14:00.000-07:00

Observation(s) of the day:

Girls like to take pictures of themselves in the dressing room.

I have no problem with that. It's cute. But it gets annoying when you take a picture of every single dress and shoe and top and post it all in friendster. All of it?? seriously? Better make an album that says 'me in dressing rooms' so I won't ponder whether or not you actually live inside a dressing room. Which is a freaky thought really.

Ah teens nowadays..

Hey! for the record, I was outside the dressing room okay? :p

We sometimes have a screwed up fast food system.

I went to McDonalds a few days back. They have this huge sign that says "try our new McShaker fries!" and there was lots and lots of fries on that poster. the price is pretty neat too! free upgrade again that. and they give one of those free packets of spicy edible dust or something. yeah. all is fine and dandy. until you see what's written right beside it. "FRIES TEMPORARILY UNAVAILABLE"

haha. Fark. I was all like. "Apa jadi sama fries kamu oh? kamu makan ka di belakang sana? Ada Giant tu di bawah, beli la.." but politely, of course. hehe. Oh! I ordered the X-Meal deluxe during fasting season. THREE KFC restaurants didn't have it! I went all totally WTF. THIS IS KFC AND YOU PEOPLE DON'T HAVE A CHICKEN AND ZINGER??!

High School Musical is so gaaaaaayyyy!!

Okay, today I finally brought myself to watch High School Musical 2. Why? I couldn't find the remote. So I watched. IT TURNED OUT TO BE SO GAY! seriously! It was so gay, I couldn't keep my eyes off it. Great marketing strategy really. This guy was walking along a golf course and suddenly, whooosh! he broke into song. I'm like. seriously?! the last song was like 7 minutes ago! I continued to watch it because I was seriously in need of a good laugh. and oh boy, HSM made me LOL! Surya says the dancing was also gay. man. that was the gay-est part! sorry kids :]

Haha. Don't say I didn't warn you okay?

Hehe. bhangra music!

2008-10-18T11:59:00.000-07:00

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This is our countdown,

this is our life, our love, our heart's desire,

like burning puzzles on a rainy day,

vaguely understood, bathing in oracular fire,

like that entity between our shadows and souls.

Why is it that, we never take the time to understand ourselves?

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"Try not to love too much, okay, Qay? You'll hurt more people than yourself.."
Huh. I should've listened to that advice man.

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Hello people! I'm back to blogging. count down to SPM? 23 days. about three weeks. I'm so gonna die. I drove to Surya's house just now just for kicks! Yes people, I can drive! oh some feelings are just incomparable.

Gah my neck hurts. oh before I forget, thanks to everyone who came to my modest open house just now :] I had a good time eh! although we suck in quantity, we rock socks in quality :] Even Melia's sister came. Thanks Sofea/Sophia :] *pokes Nana* Yeah. Nana gets excited over the simplest of things. hehehe :] Oh! And Faiz stayed over my house just to help with the arrangements! thanks man.

Ngah. Desperado is gonna be my nickname la this -.-

Now this, my friend, is body art.

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Stalking friendster is my thing. haha. Okay I'm not good at it but heck it's fun. I need more lamb curry.

I effin love to laugh at grammatical errors in friendster :D

OH! OH! Wait! I just had a primary school flashbackk..

*Cheesy wavy flashback lines*
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*Situation: there's a new girl at school who just moved in. I've never seen her. she'd just moved in. Out of curiousity, went to check her out.. she was in a different class*

Zul: Ada dia dalam kelas tu, ko tingu la..

Qay: Iyah? betul meh cantik?

Zul: Betul baaah. ko check ja. aku masuk kelas lu.

Qay: *checks out girl, walks away because expectations are not met*

Gah. I'm talking about this girl.

Oh how people can change. Huh. I know this post is like. so meaningless. haha. bah later la I come up with more. for now, I need water and lamb curry. maybe some pudding.. and chocolates.. oh! and caramel. I love caramel.. and ice cream.. *drools*

Listen to the music in my friendster's playlist! :D

2008-10-15T20:06:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHA! Phark.

QAY IS OFFICIALLY BITTER.

And He doesn't care anymore :] for all he knows, he'll be happy just being himself. Not caring about anyone but him. Now he wonders if God created some people to meet him just to test him the value of letting go..

I gotta rethink this whole 'friendship' business. haha. Props to Surya tho. We have that kinda relationship where I can insult her, and she could insult me back. then we'll have a good laugh and maybe a drink or two together. :] and she was the only one that said to me "Aww dats cute weyh :p im glad you finally found someone. Now you wudn't be so emo about ur love life :p haha"

I'M LETTING GO. Nuff said.

Hey! Come to my (friends only) Open House Saturday :]

4PM til night!

(Hey! I do care about people! just some people who are just bikin panas crazypig)

Oh babe, the game has just begun :] You think I'm bitter before huh? You have seen nothing yet :]

Go ahead. try me.

Doing my tagging responsibilities! :]

2008-10-12T12:08:00.000-07:00

The Rules ;

1. Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
4. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog***********************************

1. I own just two pairs of shoes other than my school shoes. One's a pair of Emerica's Heretic 2 in a sorta batik design, one's a Nike Air Max 180. Both were discounted. I use my Heretic for almost everything. Outings, proms, even dinners. I'm not picky with shoes.. My Nike is strictly for running and jogging :] You can find me at the beach, that's my favourite place to jog.

2. I can get very carried away with strategy games. I currently play games such as Command and Conquer Generals: Zero Hour, Heroes IV and Age of Empires. Yeah. I'm a geek sometimes. Long hours in front of the computer just to finish one game. Huh. Nobody understands me :p

3. Music inclination: Hiphop. I have no idea why, but I'm into rapping and beatboxing. though I'm still practising on the latter, I've been brave enough to take on the stage to rap. Yeah, won some and lost some but I like the thrill :] My partner in music is this guy Faiz. He can hit high notes while I just do the rapping. We did a mash up of Appologise-Where'd you go medley and took first place for the duet category in our school's Bakat Interact thingy. Ah good times..

4. I inappropriately crack jokes at the worst times. I can crack racist jokes in a room full of Chinese people, or do an impression of someone who is just right next to me. It's kind of a spur of the moment thing where I just have to say it because if I don't, It'll lose its humour value :] Just don't take it to heart.

5. I'm a serious sucker for horror movies! I love watching horror movies man! It's the ultimate affordable thrill.. Once, I was so freaked out, shaken up and sweating after the movie ended, I WATCHED IT AGAIN :D But in the movies only la. I disapprove of real life cruelty to anything be it humans or animals, even insects. I squash them only out of surprise. Honest. :p

6. My frequently watched shows are, hands down, the CSI series. I started watching the series waaaaay back when. Back when Gil Grissom was the only CSI I know. Sometimes I get it carried away in real life and I can be caught saying "YOU LIAR! I KNOW THAT'S NO TRUE COZ THE EVIDENCE SUPPORTS MY THEORY!" yeah. nuff said.

7.I do not speak English in everyday conversations :] malay at home, malay at school, malay at tuition, malay at the library.. :) I only speak English to people who asks ask me questions in English. Oh, and I speak English online too I guess.. :]

BERSAMA MEMARTABATKAN BAHASA MALAYSIA! :D

Ilikemynewphonealot!

2008-10-06T08:56:00.000-07:00

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Don't tell me that it's over, I'm not used to this temptation.

Ah! SPM trials, probably one of the most hectic period you'll ever face in Malaysian high schools. I'm not blogging while I'm having it, That's exam suicide. I played games instead. My trials was two weeks before the Raya holidays. Sabby was just laughing at me while she was laying back doing nothing productive during my trial week. Now they're having their trials. WHO'S LAUGHING NOW SABBY?? HAHAHA. I SLEEP IN CLASS AGAIN THIS! :P Good Luck though, dear friend :]

I got back my addmaths paper, biology & chemistry (Both paper two). If you look at the grades, it's damn disappointing eventhough I got second highest in class for my biology. And I failed Addmaths! But this time it's okay because I just simply lazed around during the trial. I practically burnt 20-30 marks by not answering questions I know. If SPM is anything near what this trial offered, then I think I won't be banging my head on the wall after SPM is over..

A chemical equation!

SPM is in about.. 30+ days and I'm starting my driving tuition in this week! Right.. That's a good thing right? Sure, if you constantly have money for gas and an actual car. I'm just afraid of smallsmall stuff my parents will ask me to do once I get a license..
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*At 6am in the morning*

Dad: QJ, banguuun..
Qay: Huh? *Scratches eyes* Apa ni? baru ja lepas SPM kemarin.. mau tidurr baaahh. manada sekolaaa..
Dad: Uh. ya. tolong kasi undur kereta dulu. Blocking bah.
Qay: ..........................................

And my mom! huh. I don't think she trust me to drive yet, eventhough she was the one who taught me how to drive the most.. well, sorta, just replace "taught" with "screaming in the car". This conversation happened today when I was driving myself and my mom to the library..

Mum: Okay, at the corner this, tarik hand-brake, shift to P and wear your seatbelt.
*Stops, pulls hand-brake, gear shifted to P, puts on seatbelt. Continues driving*

- After 7 minutes..

Qay: And why aren't you wearing seatbelts?
Mum: In case anything happens, Easier for me to get out of the car lah.

-.-

Haven't karaoke-ed like that for a long time man.

2008-10-04T11:28:00.000-07:00

Qay needs to learn Chinese! hahaha.

I don't wanna be clueless in a room full of people again.

Damn it. Everytime people try to talk chinese to me, I'd be all "Oh! Hao! Hao!"
*Turns to chinese person next to me to ask what the heck did that person just asked me.*

Yeah. I know Hao means.. yes? Terrence's chinese name mah. of course I remember.

Ren = orang

Tai Yang = Matahari

And he taught me a few phrases too! like "Ni Jiao shen me ming zi?"
I tried it on Carmelia's sister. haha. I can't believe I actually got the tone all right man!

Chinese phrasebooks are not helping eh.
I have three of them but the tone needs more practical..

The first insult in Chinese I learnt is "Ni Mama Ta!" (Your mum's huge!)
That's a seriously lame insult, I know.. but it's a start right? :]
Ironically, I learnt that from a Malay guy.
Before i get beaten up, can somebody teach me how to say "I take that back!" in Chinese please??

Hao!

Oh Happy, tiring day :]

2008-10-01T07:18:00.000-07:00

Happy Raya everyone! :] Since it's a month full of forgiveness, here are some specific things I wanna appologise about to whom it may concern..
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Racist jokes - Sorry, Chinese people.
Half-racist jokes - Sorry, Half Chinese people.
Overpricing - I can't help it if you're a sucker. eh. sorry. i take that back. Sorry, suckers.
Dishonesty - Sorry I lied people.. Really am.. (Hey, how would you know if I'm not lying now?)
Stalking - Oh. I know you like it. hahaha.
Noise-making - No, it's not sound pollution if you're the only one complaining. But sorry anyway, you complainer.
Late nights in front of the computer - Sorry body. You should've told me I was pushing you too hard.. too bad the ears and mouth are on the face..
Battery draining -Sorry, phone. People keep on texting me. thanks, people :] Oh yeah. Laptop, quit complaining. you're on electricity most of the time anyway.
Broken Promises - I promise I won't do it again. hahahahaha!!
Sound Blasting - Err. eardrums, can you hear me? I wanna say SSOOOORRRYY!!
Backsashing - Mum and Dad, Sorry. Maybe it's just moodswings.
Unspoken words - Sorry. IloveyouMysygness. Sorry I piss you off alot lately, eventhough we've made up.. you deserve the most of my appologies.. Thanks for being there for me, even when you don't have to be. Sorry you had to deal with my crap day after day..

Well I guess that's it for now :D Open house invite me okay?

An elongated post. why? I just have so much to say. And you wouldn't listen anyway.

2008-09-28T12:08:00.000-07:00

Gosh. I don't live up to the title 'Qay the Sarcast' lately. Have I lost my touch?

I blog for my own satisfaction.

If there's people interested in what I have to say, I thank you.

Okay. I just finished my SECOND sahur. Yes, I ate sahur a total of two times today. Not really because I'm hungry. But my mum cooks the best Curry Lamb in the land. (Yes I added the 'in the land' just for rhyming purposes) Seriously. It's probably the only food that understand my Malay tongue. Not too tough, spicy but thick. And, perhaps, occasionally elastic. ~~Fun to play with~~. Only my mum can make it taste so good.
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I was persuaded to drink this Redoxon tablet by my mum. Anybody ever heard of it? Apparently it gives me doses of Vitamin C. Not that I care too much about it. It's ascorbic acid. Scientists give out cool names but we all just HAD to shorten it to just one letter. C! C! Ascorbic Acid can be a name for a garage metal band man! And people ask why Biology is hard to study. We neglect biology in our everyday lives people. Be aware of that. Example? Chocolates does not stimulate pimple formation. But it does promote nervous tension as well as migraine headaches (Thought you were gonna go on a chocolate splurging extravaganza huh? I guess not anymore. )

When a nerd is trying to prove his point: that's the molecular structure of ascorbic acid.

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And I now understand why some people couldn't quite grasp that one thing some people just take for granted. The English language. Seriously. On the Malay side, the vocabulary is direct so it poses a problem with some English pronunciations. like. When we spell S.A.T.U, it is literally pronounced sa-tu. English, on the other hand, when you spell O.N.E, it's pronounced as wahn. That's why I don't judge people who cannot relate lineally with English. It's. just. damn. hard. to. learn. Here's more example:

Go ahead, pronounce Istanbul the same way you pronounce island.
How did they find out how to pronounce bouquet?
they say sorry seems to be the hardest word.. WRONG. otorhinolaryngologist is much, much harder.

So please people. do not take your English language skills for granted.

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I'm the only guy taking English Literature in my whole form. I don't do poetry. I have a low attention span and I definitely do not fancy going to extra tuition. I'm in it for the chance to analyse of different characteristics of people. I can't stand being told in Biology class that everyone works the same way. We don't. I need to feel the world, and the world equals to idiosyncracies. You have those things in literature that practically tells us that we are never the same. we're humans. yes, we breathe, digest, even perhaps excrete the same way. But we're different.
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I find myself constantly in places I want to be and don't wanna be at the same time. I have sacrificed my ability to be outstanding for being able to blend in the crowd. Long time coming, and it was kind of a stroke of destiny, perchance? I could've sharpened alot of my early skills but I decided to just discover all of them and let them roam wild. I see alot of people with awesome talents come and go in the same path as mine. They draw beautifully, they can solve complex equations as fast as I can write my name on the test paper. Huh.. I'm just... Qay.
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I'm rarely alone in the crowd. Ugh.

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Well. I presume some artistes need canvas. Some, need wax and clay while some thrive with music. I guess you can say my canvas is people. I like analysing human behavior. I would love to know what makes you happy and what pisses you off, without you actually telling me. That's why I use friendster more than facebook. You can actually see people's profile in friendster. No, I'm not a stalker.. not a legal one at least. :]

"Jack of all trades, master of none" is a figure of speech used in reference to a person who is competent with many skills but is not outstanding in any one.
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I'm just like this guy, jack of all trades. Only you know. I'm Malay and I look way more realistic.

Oh thank you Wikipedia. You know sometimes when you're being stupid it speaks for itself? Your ears are just too stuffed with stupidity to hear it. Sorry, random thought. I do laugh at people, just not out loud most of the time.

Do you believe in karma? What's so weird about that you ask? If you do believe it, I think you can go around and do bad things to people while thinking that they deserve it. Really. That's the whole concept riight? Hey I'm not saying I don't believe in it. I do. It's just a thought.

What do you call a chinese who can fly aeroplanes? A pilot, you freakin racist!

haha. I love that joke.

- Qay, signing out!

Everyone gets paranoid sometimes..

2008-09-26T10:03:00.000-07:00

Wanna know one thing that really weirds me out?

This..

No, not toilets per se. I'm okay with toilets. what weirds me out are closed toilet seats. I'm afraid to continue my bathroom duties if the toilet seats are closed shut. Why? I keep having this awkward sensation. I mean like, WHY is it closed? what are you hiding in there?? You hiding something I'm not suppose to know? It's a toilet for god's sake. leave it open lah! don't make me wonder.

The more retarded part comes when I decide whether or not I wanna flush it first. No, I don't wanna open it. sometimes things are better left hidden. I'll be all like. "Okay.. If I flush it, I gotta wait for some time until I can flush again. that'll be a waste of time. Do I really wanna take that risk? DO I?" but you know, if I think it's safe and I open but what I see is something disgusting, that'll traumatise me. that would be worse. So if I'm not in any bowel emergency, I'd probably flush it first :] then I have to wait. ish.

What's your retarded mild paranoia? :D

Let the good times roll babe :]

2008-09-22T07:37:00.000-07:00

Aish. I'm so pissed. Jubba's pissed. WHY? well the first batch of Kuih raya came in today. By right, I should begin my feasting and munching and being all hyped up on sugar by now but no. I'm a bit disappointed actually because my mum ordered my classic favourite, the honey cornflakes cookies with less nuts :( It's just like. Half a nut inside.. darn it! I was expecting almonds actually. :( but the sugary substance is extra sweet though. but no. U can't substitute nuts with sugar. Caramel, maybe :D

Oh.. So close..yet so far away..

Well. In my attempt to not dwell in nutless depression, let's all gaze upon..

Stupid Conversations from school!

Part one

Khairie: Apa? kau ingat dia ni pemerintahan jenis apa? Oligarki?
Qay: Buduh. ko ingat dia suka ka buat burung-burung dari kertas tu?
Khairie: hah.. ui. Itu origami bah!
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"Kalau girl you ask eh, not yet go home?"
"If guy?"
"If guy, u ask Eh. Why you still here ah??"

"mana tau soalan dia susah?"
"Nda juga tu"
"Kerajaan Abbasiyah..... Huraikan. 20 markah."
"... bah mati la kita."
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"Cantik juga dia tu kan?"
"Dia ni macam rabbit bah. walau camana bidak pun kan, tetap ada unsur-unsur cute jugaa.."
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"Teacher! When we opening up frogs?"
"There will be no dissecting.. we do it in theory only.."
"Can we at least cut open a rat?"
"No."
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"Be careful with that, its corrosive"
"What?? It's CURSED??"

Haha. Well people, until here only la for now. Off to bed I go! :D

Hello people. Meet Jubba :D

2008-09-20T11:37:00.000-07:00

SFC Installation Night 2008

You know that whole rule "If you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything?"

Yeah. I'm applying that rule now..
No, don't get me wrong. I actually had a good time. Not as good as I would hope. but there's just some things you can't put into words. This is not the right time, at least :]

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Well enough with that.

Was thinking of temporarily stop blogging until I get back my famously dubbed writing spirit. but yes, I logged in and saw there's one follower to my blog :o that kicked something up a notch. Thanks Annthea :) I'll do the tagging soon, perhaps :] do not get your hopes up just yet. (Hey that's a long tag bah!)

I'm not only gonna blog, but meet Jubba. (Pronounced Ja-ba)

If you really have to know, the inspiration for the body obviously came from corn :p It's like, I got the idea for sorta like a 'mascot' for my blog coz I think it needs some personal touch. What's more personal than a retarded looking internet corn with whiskers? Exactly :]

Since my laptop can do things like having a touch screen so I can draw on it, I did Jubba freehand only. He'll be responsible in expressing things I malas write. Yes, he'll have friends in the future :)

Well it's 3 in the morning now. Mum's going to wake up any time for sahur.

Good night people..

Gaaaah! I'm bored leyh. Malaysia got peralihan kuasa or not?

2008-09-16T08:59:00.000-07:00

Eye bags, slight pain on parts of the brain, sweat, insomnia, slow reactions, excessive stress and pressure,suicidal tendencies, lack of temper control, lethargy...

Diagnosis? SPM.

Yes folks it's true! this disease has become an epidemic, striking most 17 year old high school students. It is caused by the little understood virus, known as Malaysian High Schools. It has said that people who are 17 years who are exposed to this virus will contract the disease all at the same time. How the virus operates and chooses its infection duration is still unknown. Students who attend 'Kelas Pemulihan' or Pre-Secondary schools are believed to be contract this viral disease a little late, when they are 18. This is not the case for Penilaian Tahap Satu (PTS) passers as they are eligible to get it when they are 16.

Scientists are still looking for a strong antibiotic to fight against this epidemic but they have all agreed upon that the symptoms could be easily minimised if the following methods are implemented on the disease carriers:

STUDY AWAL-AWAL!!

Other alternatives are still being experimented such as the cramping technique, listening to the teachers while they're talking, not sleeping and talking in class, study groups, and trips to the library. Results are still pending because of the lack of test subjects.

Social websites such as friendster, myspace, and blogs find a declining number of users that are struck with the sickness, apparently because the virus causes the urge to open books and not visiting such websites.

The fatality of this disease is about 0 percent. However, there are misconceptions because victims often express that they are "going to die" or "Die!" or "mati la me this. haven't studied oh!"when they contract the disease.

Tests have shown that victims are often healed quite rapidly and consistently after their last papers, showing signs of complete euphoria by engaging in activities such as an all-night DotA play-off, visiting waterparks, playing futsal, and going on dates, among other things. these are the activities that often barred by the infection of this epidemic.

UPSR and PMR students often said to have the same symptoms as SPM students but it is less damaging and more unnoticable thus creating a linkage between the three. A more little known virus is the STPM, which does not strike everyone but it symptoms are at a level that may arise concern.

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GOOD LUCK PMR and SPM students! (and other people in other forms and darjahs who are taking their less important exams :p) may the force be with you ehh!

telur telur tu!

2008-09-13T07:16:00.000-07:00

Hahahahaha. check it out!

Freakin retarded! :D <3